Bette looked out the window of their house and peeked at Tina gardening there. She smiled to herself, goddamn.she was happy. Last night just might have been Bettes happiest night of her life, and it lasted forever. After making love they rested for maybe a half hour, then the desire to explore each others bodies came again, and again, and again until so exhausted they both fell sleepTina with her head resting in the crook of Bettes neckBettes arms around her beloved. The following morning Tina made breakfast, pancakes with blueberries slathered with cream. They mostly fed each other, Bette popping a blueberry in Ts mouth and T sitting on her lap, laughing with her arm around Bettes neck. But alas it had to end sometime, work called, and they both settled into the routine of getting ready. Side by side they brushed their teeth, making faces at each other in the mirror, Bette slapping Ts behind while she whooped running out. After endless kisses out the house and to the cars Bette drove to work, giddy with an excitement she hadnt felt in well, it felt like years. She even smiled at Franklin during work, something she usually only did with a certain kind of ironic hostility. After work driving home she called Alice and arranged by phone a get-together a day after Bettes therapy session, which was tomorrow. Bette missed her family and was anxious to see Kit who was finally coming back from her trip. She tried to come back after hearing what happened to Bette but was delayed. Bette also looked forward to her therapy session, what great news she had for Leila, everything was going to be ok.
And so now watching the back of her wife she felt like her old self, in fact she was making an effort to be more aware of people around her, T especially. Sling to herself, proud of herself Bette poured her another cup of coffee and sipped the black hotness of it. The door banged open and Tina came in, clutching her finger. She went into the bathroom then came out carrying a band aid. Bette got up from where she was sitting at the table and went over to T. She touched Tinas hand and before she could say anything Tina pushed her hand and said, dont touch it Bette! *****. Bette got as warm cloth from the kitchen and offered it to TinaHere; this might make it feel better. Tina looked up, her eyes were hurt with pain but also annoyance, she had a very long and stressful day at work and all she saw was Bettes faults. Bette! No I already washed it so put that away Jesus. Bette threw the cloth and snapped, Christ T I was just trying to help, T snapped…maybe you should just leave me alonegod it hurts. Bette stepped closer and put her arms around Tina…well then maybe I can kiss and make it bettermaybe more. Tina pushed Bette and sat down on the couch…mumbling something. Bette sat down beside her and put her hand on Ts thighTina why are you being such a *****? It was the wrong thing to say and Tina whipped her head around looking at Bette. Bette said sorry but Tina interruptedand why did you call me that Bette? What the ***** is your problem I have a cut here and your smothering me just leave me alone right now thats all I want. Bette was hurt, after all they shared last night all she wanted was to take care of Bettewas she smothering her? Bette felt the old feelings rise again.
Struggling with herself Bette was stung by what T was saying and facing her again she saidwith extreme annoyance in her voice, for ***** sake Tina why are you pushing me away? I mean last night we were together for the first time in god forever, and now all I want to do is be with you and take care of you and you say im smothering you what the ***** is up with that? Tina chewed her lip and thought for a minuteafter placing the band aid on her cut she turned to Bette then stoodmaybe this is not the right time Bette. Bette stood up also, feeling tension rise again between her and Tina, not a good time for what T? the tone in Bettes voice was not lost on TinaBette there is a whole shitload of things we need to discuss…last night was simply amazing and I want to feel that everyday with youat least almost everyday but we cant go around pretending everything is ok nowwhat about Candace Bette..did you forget you had an affair with her? And what about our babywe lost the baby Bette did you ever stop and think about that did you forget about it already? I mean I cry almost every night about him and you dont even mention him and I dont know whether to bring it up with you because I dont know if youre okok Bette that is what im thinking right now.
Bette only stared at Tina. She was taken back a step by the words and for a second didnt know what to say. Was Tina feeling this the whole time? Bette would much rather forget everything and go back to their dreamy bliss but T obviously had things to deal with, for chrissakes they both did. Bette felt lightheaded, she felt totally stupid in that she was going around trying to make things perfect when there was so much they havent dealt with. Granted they consummated their reunion but they had not even touched the issues that caused them to break up in the first place.and the babyBette felt the old feelings rise again faster and stronger…o God the baby. Suddenly she turned around and grabbed a pillow from the couchthrowing it across the room she whipped around to face Tina and with hands clenched with fists she began to yell, trying to stop herself from literally exploding. YOU WANNA TALK TINA WELL ***** TALK THEN OUR BABY IS IN YM MIND EVERY ***** SECOND I CANT EVEN FUNCTION WHEN I DO CAUSE IT IS SO ***** PAINFUL T DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I FEEL LIKE I FAILED AS A WIFE MOTHER PARTNER FRINED LOVER EVERYTHING AND I WENT LOOKING RIGHT I WENT LOKING FOR AN ESCAPE AWAY FROM MY PRIVATE ***** I TRIED BUT I COULDNT REACH YOU YOU WERE ALL CAUGHT UP IN YOUR OWN PAIN AND WOULDNT EVEN SHARE IT WITH ME..YOUR WIFE! AND CANDACE CAME ALONG AND I WAS ***** WEAK! I WAS SO ***** WEAK ALREADY SHE BARRELED INTO MY LIFE AND FUCKED EVERYTHING UP! SHE FUCKED MY BODY AND I FUCKED HERS SO WE COULD BOTH PRETEND TO FEEL THAT SOMETHING WAS FILLED UP SOME EMPTY PART WAS FFILLEDCANT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I AM ***** TRYING SO ***** HARD !!!??? EVERY NIGH I HAVE TO STOP AND THINK THIS IS REAL THIS IS REAL SO I DONT GO BACK INTO THE DARK INTO THE ***** ICEBOX!!
And with that Bette grabbed Tina and sank to her knees, her arms wrapped tightly around Ts legs. She held on until she felt Ts hands trying to pry her away. She looked up with the weight of tears in her eyes. Tinas face was deathly pale and she turned around, she opened the door and looked back. And there they looked at each other. The passion and anger of their words reached level only lovers were at. Tina left and the door swung a little in the wind, a breeze really. Tina thought sadly to herself that their journey was only beginning, she had to leave for a drive.she looked back and again…Bette im going for a drive, ill be back soon ok baby?

.and left Bette who had her hands to her stomach trying not to throw up.