Brushing her hair with her fingers Tina could now look into the bathroom mirror. Angry at her weakness she took a shower and changed her clothes, feeling a little more refreshed though her eyes were puffy from crying. Taking a deep breath Tina sat on the motel bed, breathing slowlyyoga breathingin and outin and out…It was strength that she needed now not griefthough Tina felt like her insides were ruptured from a nuclear bomb aftershockshe was that torn upbut it was strength she needed.and hardness.
hardness against Bette
After a few minutes of calm breathing Tina put her thinking cap on, it was time now to think about the next step. First she had to deal with finances, fortunately years back Tina created a separate savings account and put a large sum of money in thereover the next five years she put a certain percentage in, though she stopped when she and Bette decided to start a familyTina stopped cold.dont even think about thatdont even thinkdont think about the baby
Feeling fresh new tears burning the backs of her eyeballs Tina did some more calm breathing.strength in.weakness out.strength inweakness outbreath inoutinout
Feeling more in control Tina resumed back on trackrightfinances. She had a very tidy sum in her savings account; she would stay in the motel for a couple of weeks, while she looked for a separate place. There was no way she could stay at any of her friends places, though she knew they would be hurt Tina also knew Bette would be able to find her. Tina could not even begin to think about that. Also Tina was afraid she would completely break down if she went to any of her friends places, she would be weak and sniveling. Tina had to be strong, be in control, get her life back on trackdont be a weakling like Bette.
So she would get her finances from her savings account, pay her credit cardsdeal with her and Bettes joint account later. Nownext stepshe needed more things, she needed toiletries, more clothes, legal papers, heck needed a lot! Tina knew she had to go back eventually, when Bette wasnt there.
Next stepcall Alice. Tina knew enough of Bette that the first person she would call after getting out of her slumber was Alice, which was part of the reason why Tina didnt go there. Tina had to call Alice and let her everything was ok, well at least that nobody was in danger. Tina picked up the phone and dialed Alices number, not looking forward to ithoping she would not crack.
..Hello?
Hi Alice its me Tina
***** ***** ***** ***** ***** Tina!!? Wha-
I know I know Bette called you Alice do-not-worry-im fine and im staying at the Capri
Why the ***** are you staying there for? What happened? Bette called and she freaked the ***** out of me, Ive never heard her so frantic! Tell me what happened Tina!…
we had a fight-Al..Betteshe(choke)cheated on with another woman

Alice?…
im gonna kill her im gonna kill herI swear im gonna-
Alice listen its my problem ok ill deal with it I just want to let you that im ok
Jesus Tina I had no idea I dont know what to do you wanna stay with me?…
then Bette can find me Alice, promise you wont tell her I just need to figure something out
Jesus h. Christ this is like the twilight zonegodTina youyou know you cant avoid her forever I mean you have to go back and get stuff!..
..I know AliceI know.