We Honor You Part 5

Bette and Tina sat on the black leather couch in Dr. Meleen’s office. Bette fidgeted nervously and looked around. The whole appointment was split into two sessions. Once hour of Therapy Talk on their relationship and the other hour specifically devoted to their sex life…..

 

Dr. Meleen entered the office and took her seat accross from Bette and Tina. She was attractive at 45 an accomplished in her field. With a degree in Family Psychiatry an a minor in Psych. SHe was also a lesbian herself and had just celebrated her 8 year anniversary with her partner. So you could say she was qualified to discuss the issues in long term lesbian relationships. She introduced herself, "I’m Dr. Susan Meleen. You can call me Susan."

Susan leaned forward clipboard in hand and said, "Let us begin. Where did you two meet?" Bette and Tina both beamed and explained the story of the gallery exhibit and Tina’s lost earring…..

 

The couple talked for about an hour about their relationship’s ups and downs. Bette was surprised when Tina mentioned they had gone through a dry spell before they decided to have a chile. She hadn’t really thought about it but it was true. They did not have sex very often at all until they had planned inseminations. They explained that their passion for one another was fierce in the beginning. On nights when they went out with the girls for ust a few hours, those hours of little contact proved sufficient and would add up and sometimes when they returned home they didn’t even make it to the bedroom. Taking one another up against the wall just inside the door or on the stairs.

 

That had died down a little but for the most part the first five or six years they had been highly sexually active. And for the last two aside from baby making attempts they hadn’t. Bette reassured Dr. Meleen that she and Tina were still very much in love. She figured the opening of her new gallery The Bette Porter Gallery had something to do with it. She was not home nearly as much in the beginning because of meetings and making sure the place was getting put together exactly as she liked. She reminded herself that she took the job to eventually have more free time and be able to develop her own shcedule. She noticed that her own schedule had her working longer hours. As she admitted this Dr. Meleen added, "Bette, I think I’ve got you pinned. Once you began discussing and preparing for the baby and Tina quit her job, I believe you became frieghtened that you couldn’t provide for Tina and the baby. So, you took on more hours and I believe you felt Tina putting pressure on you to be the sole provider during your attempts at pregnancy". Bette was shocked she couldn’t understand how well this doctor had gottne into her head. SHe nodded, "Yes, that’s exactly right, I was so worried I couldn’t provide for them to keep them safe and secure". Tina turned to Bette, "I didnt know that honey…. and I never meant to put pressure on you. I thought you liked when I said how proud I was of you at the Gallery and how hard you were working". She looked down, "I’m so sorry". Bette took her hand, "Me too. I’m sorry I wasnt home more so we could have talked". Dr. Meleen interrupted, "Exactly. Communication the key to any strong relationship. Just talk about what you guys are feeling. This rut of sexual intimacy was spawned by miscommunication. Tina thought Bette was enjoying the long hours she was spending away from home at the office and therefore didn’t challenge you our argue about spending more time with her". "Okay, tell me about more recently Tina". Tina began, "Well, I’m just not feeling my sexiest right now. I still have 15lbs of Angie’s baby fat to lose. I also feel self consious about my scar and breasts and mostly just all my post baby body. It’s not beautiful. We haven’t made love since Angelica was born. I don’t blame Bette for wanting to. I want her more than I can say. I just don’t like thinking how she will react to the temporary and permanent changes on my body". Dr. Meleen, "I see, and Bette what is your reaction to this?" Bette answered, "It’s frustration. I am sexually attracted to my wife. Period. I love her body and I always will but she’s decided to just assume I don’t want her because of these changes Angie has made to her body. Tha’t bullshit!" She turns to Tina, " Your’e temporary and permanent changes are beautiful to me. Tina, they are a testament to the sacrifice you gave in having Angie and bringing us someone to complete our family. I lvoe your scar because everytime I see it I think about how precious the gift was and how close I came to losing you both. And your breasts are beautiful. I just ache to touch them and taste them again. I want  you. No exceptions. Why do you think I’m her, huh? Sitting through therapy, which I loathe entirely, and expressing to you and a perfect stranger how I feel about you? Now, If I have to wait for you I will but like you said some aspects of your body are temporary so I would lose my chance to at least once make love to and cherish the body that brought our beautiful Angelica into the world". Dr. Meleen paused and added, "Very good point Bette. Now, whether you have sex in the near future or wait, I have some special Items that can stimulate and make your lovemaking sessions all the more enjoyable. Now, if you would please follow me to the next room." They all stood ad made there way to the room. "Okay, so one of you lie down on the couch and the other come pick some material." Bette comments," Mama T, why don’t you go lie down and I’ll choose some material for us". Dr. Meleen turns around at looks at Bette and Tina quizzically, " No……. pleast" Turning to Tina, "Do you also call her Mama B" Tina answered, "Yeah, sometimes I do call her Mama B". Dr. Meleen has them both sit down, " Alright…. Listen the guiding principle here is that we are trying to rekindle the sexual spark in a long term relationship and Mama T and Mama B do not make mad, passionate love to one another, they make cookies. K." "Now, I’ve written up a list of excersized on focus and sensaid for you to do at home". " I want you to begin by blidfolding Tina while she is naked". Bette smirks and winks at Tina. Tina bites her lip and says, "Oh NO! no way". Dr. Meleen answers, "What’s wrong with that?". Tina counters, "I’d feel ridiculous. I don’t want anybody stary down at my naked body…." Bette cuts in, "Well, first of all, I’m not just anybody, I’m your life partner and would be lover and secondly I find you beautiful". Tina answers, "I know what you said before but you can’t possibly find this big, ugly scar and my sagging stomach and my leaky nipples beautiful". Bette answers, "Baby, you cannot tell me what I can and cant find beautiful". Tina adds, "And I’m tired babe, I’m up half the night with Angelica". Bette smiles as she forms an idea, "I was thinking, you should get a breast pump so you can pump a few bottles worth before you go to bed and when Angie fusses at night I could take her and feed her and you could sleep". Dr. Mellen comments, "Good Point Bette, SO moving on. I would like you to at least attempt some of these excersizes at home. Now lets look at some things I have here. We….. could…. try…. the lovers paint box? 33.95." Tina whispers, "It’s too expensive". Dr. Meleen continues, "Or the hot sex ice cube kit for 19.95". Tina quietly asks, "What do you do with the ice cube kit?" "well, you take a cube and put it in your mouth let a little water drip on her clit…… on her nipples. ONe of the big problems of lesbian sexual dysfunction is aversion to oral stimulation and these…. pardon the pun…. are a major ice breaker". "So, when do you guys put Angelica down?" Bette answers, "We don’t really have a set schedule". Dr. Meleen comments, "Okay, well when you put her in her crib…." Tina interrupts, "Ah. She doesn’t have a crib we are practicing attachment parenting." Bette adds, "We could send her to our neighbor friend to free a few hours up for us". Dr. Meleen conclude, "Okay, so during these few hours a week I would like you to practice the excersizes, okay? And you let me know how it all works out". "We will" they say in unison……….

 

TBC….

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