Of course Tina knew this wasn’t the real reason she stayed away so long. Yesterday, she picked up Angel at Bette’s and noticed Helena sitting at the pool, she wanted to know more about what exactly was going on and started chatting with them about Bette’s new work, the way Helena handled the cut off and living with less money, about Angelica’s first words and about how Alice and Shane were doing. She hadn’t been in contact to much with the girls and talking to Bette and Helena made her feel like she had been shut out, even if she knew that in fact, it was her own fault. Helena told her that she went out with Alice and Bette to go speed dating and they had a really good time, even tough neither of the three met an interesting girl, they laughed there butt’s off, specially with that blond chick who apparently tried to kiss Bette. Hearing all this, Tina had this weird feeling in her stomach. Bette was dating and meeting other people, she was getting her life back, without her and on top of that she was looking really good yesterday, Bette looked like she was beginning to look and act like the old Bette used to be.

Tina said goodnight to the two girls, got Angel in the car and drove home. But on the way home, she was thinking about Shane, Alice, Jenny, Helena, Lara, Kit, and..Bette. She realized that she really started to miss them and that unconsciously she was missing them ever since the trip to Canada. She mist the chats at the planet in the morning, the warm and close friendship she had felt for all those years, the laughter, the tears, the going out and…Bette. Thinking of al these things she had gotten tears in her eyes and pulled over. She spent the next hour, looking just in front of her and thinking about all that, made her feel confused. Am I jealous that they are moving on without me? Do I just really miss them? What is this feeling that suddenly made me cry and feel so bad? She really needed to talk to someone about it, but who? If she would tell Henry he would never understand. He would just say she had new friends, his friends. She just calmed herself and drove home, feeling kinda lonely.