“Off course. There’s plenty of food in the kitchen.” Lara said, hiding her disappointment very well.

“No thanks, Lara. I don’t want to disturb you guys. I was um I was just going to say that I’m going to Helena’s. Right now.”

“Oh. I thought you were meeting her now?” Dana said.

“Yeah. Yeah. I am. I was just I think she needs to talk. So” Alice tried desperately to lie fast, but she was not very skilful in the art of lying.

“Okay. If that’s what you want Al.” Dana said, clearly disappointed. “Will you come over later then?” She murmured in to the blonde’s left ear.

“I’ll try.” Alice answered, giving Dana a quick kiss on the lips. “Bye Lara!” She called on her way out. Dana sat down, following Alice out with her eyes. She took another bite of the food that did not taste as good this time. Dana felt it now. Something was the matter with Alice.

“It’s a shame she couldn’t stay.” Dana sighed.

“Yeah. Shame.” Lara responded sadly, but did not feel that sad inside.

–

Alice was sitting in her car outside Helena Peabody’s rented mansion. She had surprised herself by actually going there. She had lied to Dana when she said she was going to Helena’s. She could not sit down with her girlfriend and Lara. She just could not. She felt like a blabbering idiot, she could not act normally around the redhead. It was like a mental condition. Maybe that was what it was. She could not believe Dana did not notice. Maybe she just did not want to see. Alice knew she needed to do something about these feelings that just took over her completely. Her feelings of jealousy, but also the maybe even stronger feelings of shame and guilt that came with the jealousy. Whenever she closed her eyes she saw Dana with Lara. It was unbearable. There was nothing she wanted more than to get rid of those feelings. It was like some kind of demon in her very soul, tormenting her. The strangest thing was that she was so very aware of what she was doing. She knew how wrong this was. That was precisely why she could not tell Dana about it.