My head and my heart are wrestling to see who will win and I don’t know what the result will be. My mind wants me to do the right thing and keep my family together. My heart on the other hand, well it already belongs to Bette BUT she can never know this. Bette and I must remain JUST friends It really is the best thing.

As I pull into the parking lot and stop beside Bettes car she looks at me.

Bette: What is wrong?

Tina: Nothing why do you ask?

Bette: Well maybe because you haven’t said more than two words to me the whole drive here?

Tina: Yeah i am tired.

Bette: You weren’t tired when you first came over this morning NOW all of a sudden you are tired?

Tina: Yes Okay can’t a person be tired?

Bette: Sure it happens but I think it is something else. In fact you didn’t get all quiet untill peter called me.

Tina: Look I don’t want to talk about it okay?

Bette: Well I do want to talk about it are yoiu mad at me for answering my phone?

Tina: No that would be silly of me you can answer your phone anytime.

Bette: Well IF you aren’t angry with me for answering my phone then what is it?

Tina: Nothing It’s nothing.

Bette: Could you be jealous of Peter?

Tina: No I am not jealous.

Bette: Well then tell me what is wrong? Why are you being so distant all of a sudden?

Tina: Okay It’s because you are with Peter and I am with Charlie. I have two kids to worry about and before this goes any farther we need to stop. I do not want to ruin your relationship and mess up my whole family. We just need to stay friends.

Bette: Well okay if that is what you want I will respect your wishes then.

Tina: Yes it is what I want (I lied)

Bette: Fine I just won’t try kissing you anymore.

Tina: Okay we ARE still friends right?

Bette: Yes of course we are friends.

Tina: Okay I gotta go home now.

Bette: Bye thank-you for giving me a ride to my car.

Tina: No problem that’s what friends are for.

As Bette leaves my car I feel my heart getting very heavy like I just lost something valuable that I cannot live without. I drive home feeling like my world is ending. I AM doing the right thing that is what I must remind myself. I get out of my car after parking it in my driveway I enter the house. Seems like noone is home I go to my room and fall down on the bed and begin crying. Why am I so sad If I made the right decision?

TBC