Alex give me a hug as does Tyler and they both start on the dishes as I head to my room. I change into my nightgown and slip in between the sheets just as Charlie walks in. I hear him lock the door so I pretend to be asleep. I will not tell you WHO is on my mind but I bet you can guess??

As I am laying in bed pretending to sleep Charlie crawls into bed and tries to get my attention. I turn to my side away from him. I can feel Charlie rubbing my arm his hand feels rough.

Charlie: Tina….Tina? Are you awake?

Tina: No I am trying to sleep

Charlie: Come on I need you right now.

Tina: Charlie I really am so not in the mood.

Charlie: Well I bet I can put you in the mood?

Charlie starts kissing my neck and running his hand up and down my right leg. I can hear his breathing getting heavy and all I can picture is Bette so I push My husband off me.

Tina: Look Charlie I said I wasn’t in the mood right now and I am tired I am sorry but I really need some sleep cause I gotta work tomorrow. Charlie rolls over and pouts like a little boy would when his ice cream falls to the dirty ground.

Charlie: Fine then good night!!

Now I am lying in bed feeling frusterated and guilty because I made my husband feel bad. I cannot help it. I just can’t do this. How can I? How can I possibly give myself to one person and be thinking of someone else all together? I finally fall asleep with sweet dreams of YOU KNOW WHO???

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The next morning I wake up and Charlie is already gone. I get into the shower and decide I want to go see Bette before work. So I get dressed and leave a note for my sons.

Dear: boys

I needed to do a few things before work today so help yourselves. Make some toast for breakfast and there is turkey lunch meat in the fridge for you to make your school lunch. I love you very much and I will see you tonight.Have a good day at school.

Love Mom

I get into my car to drive to Bettes place, But first I make a stop elsewhere. I have no clue what I will say to her, I just need to see her. As I pull up into her driveway I have flashbacks of the kiss we shared. I can feel a smile spreadinfg across my face. Okay here goes nothing. I grab the 2 coffees and doughnuts I purchased and walk toward her door. I can’t remember ever feeling so nervous. I ring the doorbell "rrrrriing". Bette openes the door and I find myself staring into her eyes.

Bette: hello what brings you here?

Tina: I brought you a coffee and doughnuts.

Bette: Thank-you you didn’t have to. come in please.

I enter her house and hand her a coffee. She takes the cup and leads me to the kitchen.

Bette: Sit down

Tina: I wanted to see you.

Bette: Did you? Why?

Tina: Bette I know I told you I just wanted to be friends but……….

TBC