With thankful eyes towards her I answered that she basically will keep a part of her share of the business and she´s planning to buy a restaurant or a coffee place or something of the sort… and that I don´t know much because I haven´t really talked to her lately…

“I hope it´ll be here in LA… I miss her a lot” added Shane with a brief smile, remembering old times.

“Yeah… I think she mentioned coming back here…”

But Alice wouldn´t let go and like a little kid who doesn´t get what she wants she had to say “yeahh but you won´t be around to see it will you?” completing the line with her famous Alice Pieczecki pouting.

And in those moments I swear I can´t do nothing more but to smile at her…. “you… my darling… are such a baby!” always delivering the same line with the same emphasis…

And a laughing Shane added “yeahh… a 35 year old baby…”

“Ahhh you wish!! I´m 27 you mean mean cranky…. hairdresser with a bad taste” Alice managed to quickly reply…

“Yeah… 27… of being gay…” Shane said with a condescending face…

I mean you´ve got to love them… I know we may not be the sharpest jokers in LA but… I cannot help but to truly enjoy those precious moments of teasing Alice… so before they started throwing “roses” at each other I interrupted their moment… took my last sips of coffee and left… afterall we were gonna meet that night for dinner… our usual “Wednesdays dinners”… legendary…

And as I was starting my car´s engine I realized that it´s not gonna be so hard afterall, that I am gonna be ok… simply because I have them, those three marvelous girls who were and will always be there for me. My family. The only ones I could trust and the only ones I would let into my world of inner thoughts and feelings.

Well maybe with a couple of restrictions.

But still… they mean the world to me. I need this time for me, I need to clear the air… new enviroments where I can reinvent myself…

Find a new and improved version of me.

I mean why is it so hard. I loved my father and as a ressault of that I confined myself to a tremendous academic effort in order to achieve both Business and Art majors… and devoted myself to his companies only seeking for a bit of that old expression in his eyes, that proud tone in which he used to speak about me to everyone…

Until I came out of the closet.

Stupid, I know. But don´t we all need someone to relay on?

Be honest.

To some people that “someone to relay on” may come in many different forms… your own self, love, career, personal achievements, family… and altough it doesn´t seem so, I´m not the exception…

Except in the “love” area.

But what it used to be my “business career” was not fully satisfying me… ergo the “personal achievements” in the profesional area do not carry such a big value with them…

Altough I truly DO relay on myself.

But that is not enough. So I need this, besides if I don´t stop thinking and start looking at the road a bit more I´m gonna get myself killed…

TBC????