When Tina woke up she noticed it was still dark outside. She glanced up to look at the clock, it was only 5:30. At this moment she realized that Bette was still sleeping beside her. She slowly slid out of underneath Bette’s warm grasp and turned towards her. Bette began to stir but did not wake up. Tina layed there watching her sleep and thaughts flooded her mind. She quietly got out of bed and threw on a pair of track pants and a sweatshirt. She grabbed her keys and walked out the door.


George woke up to a loud knocking at her door. She moaned and yelled “Go away Alice” looking at the clock “it’s six am for ***** sake” she said then covered her head with a pillow. The knocking didn’t stop, it only got louder. “Dammit!” she yelled getting off her bed and stumbing towards the door. She fliped on the light and said “This better be really ***** important” as she opened the door. Much to her surprise it was Tina at her door and not Alice.

George: “Tina? What are you doing here? Is everything ok?”

Tina shook her head and began to cry. George led her in and sat her down.

George: “What’s goin on girl? Did something happen with Helena? Please, give me just one reason to beat her down”

Tina: “No, nothing happened with Helena.” she said starting to calm down. “This is so hard, I don’t really know what im doing. There are just so many things running through my head. I went home last night…to Bette. I don’t know why I did it, I just needed to feel her touch….im involved with some else now, im going to have a baby soon. There are just too many things going on right now. I’ve gotten back to myself, im happy there..but I miss her. I enjoy the time I spend with Helena, it’s new and different”

George: “Yeah very different” she said butting in.

Tina: “What do you mean by that?”

George: “I remember the first time I met Bette. I thaught it was going to be weird, you with a woman, but when I saw you two together you looked so perfect. You compliment eachother perfectly, in every way. When I look at you now it’s like a light has gone out inside of you.”

Tina: “I know…but she betrayed me. She turned her back on me. She had been doing it for a while, I should have known something was wrong.”

George: “Tina, this ***** happens all of the time. I can’t begin to imagine how you feel about it. You need to first figure out when you disconnected. Look at the last year through Bette’s eyes. You guys are so much alike but so extreemly different.” she stopped trying to search for words. “Are you following me at all?”

Tina: “Yeah, I think I am…Why don’t you get some sleep. Im gonna go home”

George: “You ok?”

Tina: “Yeah, im good. I’ve gotta go. Thanks Georgie” she said giving her a hug

George: “Go get your girl, huh” she said returning the hug.

Tina smiled and walked towards the door. George followed her and shut the door behind her. She turned off the light and jumped back inot bed.

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Tina pulled into the driveway just as day broke. She got out of her car and slowly entered the house. Bette woke up and noticed Tina was no longer beside her. She leaned up and thaught “could it have been a dream”. Just then Tina walked through the doorway and into the bedroom.

Bette: “Hey” she said still confused by slumber. “Were you here last night or was I dreaming”

Tina: “I was here. I left, but now im back.”

Bette: “What time is it?”

Tina: “A little before seven” she said looking over at the clock. “Mind if I sit down?”

Bette: “Of course not” she said moving aside so Tina could sit. “What’s going on?”

Tina: “I think we need to talk about some things Bette” she said turning towards her.

Bette: “Yeah alright. What do you want to talk about?”

Tina: “Im really confused right now Bette. I feel myself falling back into “us” and it scares me. I’ve gotten back to myself in the past couple of months and I like it that way. I can’t feel like im traveling backwards. Im involved with someone new and this isn’f fair to her or you. I need to think about myself and the baby.”

Bette:(starting to cry) “Tina I…”

Tina: “Let me finish..ok” she butted in and wiped a tear off of Bette’s cheek. “but we were together for seven years. I couldn’t forgive myself if I didn’t try. I still care for you Bette but I need to take this one step at a time. I have to know if we can fix this mess…..for ours…….and our baby’s sake.”

Bette didn’t know how to respond.

Bette: “All I ever wanted was a chance…eventhough I may not deserve it. Tina I love you so much and all I need is that chance to prove it to you, to make you happy again.” is all she could get out before her sobs took over.

Tina took Bette into her arms and held her tight. At this moment she knew she was making a good decision. “one step at a time” she said continuing to hold Bette. They layed back down and fell asleep, this time Tina was holding Bette.