She thought that Sierra was hot and the fact that she’s a ballerina made her even hotter. She admits that she’s attracted to Sierra but that was it. Just an attraction, not a crush, not anything else.

Attraction and crush were totally different. Bette recalled having such a conversation with her friends about many months back.

“There is a HUGE difference between being attracted to someone and developing a crush on someone.” Bette insisted.

“Nah uh.” Alice chewed on her straw. “It’s the same thing.”

“Uh… No? It’s not the same thing, Al.”

Alice rolled her eyes.

“Alright then, Ms Smarty-pants, please do enlighten me.”

Bette rolled her eyes back at Alice.

“Being attracted to someone means… Well, you’re just simply drawn to that someone. Perhaps the physically appearance of that someone or you’re just keen to learn more about that someone.”

“Isn’t that the same as having a crush on someone…”

“No, it’s not.” Bette sighed. “Developing a crush on someone means that not only you’re drawn to that person, you bear special feelings for that someone. See the difference now?”

“Whatever, Porter. I still think that they are the same thing.”

Anyhoo, back to Bette. She was sure that she belonged in the first category. She is just attracted to Sierra, no special feelings involved.

However, this was totally different in Sierra’s case.

After spending quite some time getting to know Bette, Sierra found herself developing maybe just a tiny crush on her.

She had never ever rejected Bette when Bette called her up to hang out. She gets extremely excited when Bette comes to watch her during dance practices. And always have the urge to giggle uncontrollably like a love-sick sixteen year old girl whenever Bette compliments her.

Sierra was well aware that Bette was not completely over that other girl despite the fact that Bette had never mentioned her much ever since that ice cream talk they had. Bette seemed to be like the sort who keeps everything to herself, especially things that bothered her and that made Sierra want to get to know her better and get her to open up. And perhaps, maybe date her when the time is right? She clearly knew that she shouldn’t make a move just yet, she didn’t want to become Bette’s rebound.

Now, we all must be wondering what is going on with Helena. We know that she’s with El and they seem to be taking their relationship to another level, to becoming an exclusive couple.

Helena enjoyed spending time with El, like how she enjoyed spending time with Bette. El’s intelligent, nice and sweet, somehow a lot like Bette. Except that he was the male version and has a penis. Apart from that, El was patient with her, never pushing her into getting into anything and that included sex.

Helena liked El but wouldn’t say that she liked him that much that they would jump into bed together. She liked the pace of which the relationship is going, no sex yet. She knew that she wasn’t ready and needed more time.

Although Bette had never expressed it, it was obvious to Helena that she didn’t take much of a liking to El. It was strange to her that Bette seemed to be very cool with the other guys she had dated but just not El.  

Talk about strange, still noticed that ever since the new school semester had begun, Bette was acting all strange. Bette would space out every now and then when they’re having conversation, then came the binging on junk food period, then came the going out for long runs every day and finally came the part where Bette bails on her for lunch last minute.

Helena was sure that something was going on with Bette but wasn’t sure what. She would often ask Bette if she was alright and Bette would just shrug and be like, “I’m okay.”

She took this as a sign that Bette wasn’t ready to talk though she secretly speculates that it has something to do with this other girl. She had seen Bette hanging out with this other girl on campus a lot lately. But never mentioned anything about her.

Perhaps Bette took interest in that girl?

Helena cringed at that thought.