Alice had driven way too fast back to her apartment, knowing that by doing that she wouldnt have to think about what had just happened until she was home with a joint in her hand. When shed seen Tina sat in the living room, her heart had dropped for two reasons. Obviously because she was worried about Tina and knew some serious ***** must have gone down for Tina to be here alone in the middle of the night. But also, and she hated to admit it because it made her sound so selfish, because it had meant she hadnt had time to think and more importantly to relive that moment with Dana.

Now, after hours of comforting Tina and trying to focus entirely on her, she was finally alone in the bathroom, staring into the mirror at her tired looking reflection.
She had never felt so torn in her life. She had kissed lots of women, and lots of men for that matter, but none of them had made her feel like this not even her first ever kiss, and that had been the benchmark for all kisses since. Until now.

Okay Alicethink about this logically she forced herself to calmly state to her own reflection. She did what she always does when she has a big decision to make and cant separate the voices in her head. Holding her hands up like beaks, she began the conversation between them, imagining one hand was her and the other was Elleninterviewing her on her talk show. Alice smiled at herself, beginning to enjoy the scenario

Hey Alice, youre looking cute today, but then when dont you? Anyway, what we all want to know isWhy dont you like Tonya?

Well thanks for the compliment Ellenyoure looking hot yourself. To answer your question I dont like Tonya because she is a grifter and she just latched onto Dana because she was a sure thing. Shed just started to get famous, was beginning to pull in the money and Tonya wanted all that. Shes a control freak who was even jealous of sharing Danas attention with a cat. So she killed it. Shes sick and cheap and mean and shes bad for Dana. And I hate her

Okay. Glad we got that sorted. But Im still a bit puzzled Alice, and maybe you can help me figure something out?

Sure sweetie, whats the problem?

If you hate Tonya because shes bad for Dana, then why didnt you just tell Dana thatwhy did you kiss her instead?

Mmmmm, a good question Ellen. I guess I kissed her because I couldnt think of how to say it so that it sounded rational and convincing.

But youre a writeryoure good with words. You know how to persuade people that getting their ***** rejuvenated is a good idea, just by using words. So it would seem to me that you know that you could never make that argument sound rational and convincing because its not…love is never rational. You know that Alice.

My God, youre right Ellen. You are truly a ***** guru!

Alice slumped down on the edge of the bath, forgetting about the witty dialogue between her hands. She had kissed Dana because she was in love with hershe didnt know where it had come from or exactly how long it had been there, but it explained everything. She had no logical, rational reason for Dana not to marry Tonya except that she just couldnt bear to see it happen. Why shouldnt they get together? If the ***** was as good as that kiss implied it would be, theyd have the perfect relationship. Best friends in bed as well as out of it!

She turned the shower on and ran out to the kitchen to get some juice whilst the shower warmed up. She would get ready and go and see Dana and tell her what she had figured out. She was taking a long gulp of juice when Tina spoke quietly from behind her

Why do you talk to yourself in the bathroom? Do you do it every morning? Is it like a ritual or something? To psych yourself up for the day? Tina asked,

Not quite. Psyching myself up for something though. But Ill tell you about that laterhow are you doing? Alice asked, the last part in a worried voice.

Okay, considering. I just need to really think about what I want and what I should do now Tina answered.

Well you just stay for as long as you need and let me know if theres anything I can do to help okay?

Thanks Al. I will. Im gonna go for a walk. See you later. Tina walked towards the door and stopped just as she was about to open it. Oh and say hi to Dana from me and Ellen she added, through a knowing smile, followed by a wink. Then she was gone and Alice was left alone to get ready to face Dana and the truth.