Lose It All
Air date: January 19, 2020
Bette is conflicted about old feelings, Shane is tested by her relationship with Quiara, and Alice gets blindsided at home and work. Meanwhile, with Dani busy with the election, Sophie feels relieved to have Finley around. Micah introduces José to his mother.
See SUMMARY by @bat2012 below the Cast.
|Episode cast overview, first billed only:|
|Jennifer Beals||…||Bette Porter|
|Katherine Moennig||…||Shane McCutcheon|
|Leisha Hailey||…||Alice Pieszecki|
|Arienne Mandi||…||Dani Nunez|
|Leo Sheng||…||Micah Lee|
|Jacqueline Toboni||…||Sarah Finley|
|Rosanny Zayas||…||Sophie Suarez|
|Stephanie Allynne||…||Natalie ‘Nat’ Bailey|
|Jamie Clayton||…||Tess Van De Berg|
|Rosalind Chao||…||Grace Lee|
|Lex Scott Davis||…||Quiara Thompson|
|Freddy Miyares||…||Jose Garcia|
|Laurel Holloman||…||Tina Kennard|
Summary by @Bat2012
This was an emotional one, but I tried to limit my personal commentaries
LWordGenQ Season 1 Episode 7 Recap aired 1/19/2020
Lose It All
Alice, Nat and Gigi seem to have fully integrated their household. Gigi is super-efficient and organized including color-coding their closet. While Alice and Nat are on their first cup of coffee, Gigi has fixed the kids breakfast, packed their lunches, arranged for one of the soccer Moms to take Olive for practice while she drops Eli at ballet. Alice tells the two moms that today is the day she will confront the network in her attempt to get rid of Drew so won’t be home for dinner (which Gigi is going to pick up for them) but wants to make it a rule that they can’t watch ‘Below Deck’ without her. Apparently, they have rules about what they can’t do without all three involved, which seems to be everything.
Alice is set to present her ideas to the network executives when Drew pops in unexpectedly. Her intent was to get him fired the following season, but the tables are turned on her. Instead Barry from the network tells Alice that they were hoping to make changes before then. “…quite frankly we don’t know if there will be a next season. Your show is on the bubble Alice. Your ratings are way off our targeted numbers, and between our production budget and our P&A numbers you’re operating at a deficit.” After the meeting Drew comes to Alice’s office to console and offer his help. She resists him for a while being totally honest that he was the person she was talking about when she told the network executives that “there were too many voices in the room”. Drew is totally oblivious to Alice’s world and her views but in the end, they agree to give the network what they want so they can guarantee another season.
In the meantime, Gigi and Nat are cozy at home with their kids. After having dinner and reading bedtime stories and putting the kids to bed, the two Moms retreat to the kitchen for a cup of tea. Nat appears a bit anxious and melancholy especially as she watches Gigi with the kids and starts missing what they used to have as a family (pre-Alice). Her mood becomes more solemn, and finally she opens up to Gigi about her regrets of not trying harder to salvage their marriage when she found out Gigi cheated. Gigi was willing but Nat never gave her the chance to apologize or to fix things at the time, but she says she’s here now and the kids are doing great. Nat isn’t fully consoled, but they can’t turn back time, so they work with their present situation starting with a kiss that turns passionate and eventually lands them in bed making love (without Alice).
Turns out Alice wasn’t quite sure what she was signing up for with this arrangement and her open-mindedness when she gets home venting about her bad day at work only to find her two partners naked in bed together. Was this breaking one of those throuple rules? She’s shocked but they are nonchalantly asking her if she wants to join them as they move over to make room. Alice wants to know what is going on. Nat is not sure what the big deal is since Alice told her she was OK with, and open to the relationship between them even when Nat expressed doubts and fears about all the ‘feelings’ for her ex-wife that were bubbling up and confusing her. Alice denies being mad, but she can’t really express what she is feeling. She wasn’t sure what she expected. Gigi suggests Nat and Alice talk alone, but Nat wants the three of them to talk it out. “No, no Gigi you should stay. It’s your house. It’s fucking your … it’s your wife. It’s your whole fucking life.” Alice is devastated and walks out. Nat wants to go after her, but Gigi says give her time.
Tina sees Shane’s bar for the first time and is impressed with how beautiful it is, and how much Dana would have loved it. Shane agrees, and mentions that business is picking up. A server brings their drinks and asked if she should remove the extra setting. Bette says no, Shane says yes. Seems they were expecting Alice to join them. Shane tells Bette that Alice is still mad. Tina asked if it’s about the ‘Felicity’ thing, and Bette immediately defends herself saying that she’s apologized numerous times. Shane tells her to give it time, and Tina assures her that Alice will come around. Bette is regretful but all she can hope is that they are right. She realizes how hurtful her actions were to Alice and she wants to make up.
Tina asks Shane how Quiara is doing and Shane responds that she’s fine. “We’re going to hear the baby’s heartbeat today.” Bette and Tina have an emotional reaction reminiscing about the first time they heard Angie’s heartbeat. They inadvertently held hands and gazed in each other’s eyes as they shared a moment. Shane is observing the two ex-wives the whole time with her usual all-knowing smile. Bette and Tina talk about arrangements for Angie which includes spending time with Jordi to ‘watch a movie’. Shane makes a comment like ‘you know what that means’ and Bette starts to freak out. Tina tries to calm her. Apparently, she’s not prepared for her little girl to grow up and isn’t handling it well. Since Angie won’t be with them Tina asks if she and Bette can have dinner just the two of them. Bette says yes, that would be nice and suggests Tina come to her house, and she will cook for them. Tina agrees just as her phone vibrates. The call is from Carrie. She walks away from the table to take it. Once again, we see the smirk from Shane as she watches Bette watch Tina on the phone. Bette asks ‘what?’ and Shane says, ‘Mm you seem a little flushed’. Bette responds “hormones”.
Later at the OBGYN, Shane is fiddling with a model of a female reproductive organ that comes apart and something falls to floor. Quiara is watching her from the bed in the examining room as they await the OBGYN to hear the baby’s heartbeat for the first time. Quiara tells her it’s OK to be nervous. Shane answers that she’s not nervous, just curious but Quiara is not buying it. Door opens and the doctor walks in. They talk about how Quiara is doing, her cravings and her nausea then they get ready to hear the heartbeat. Quiara is nervous and excited but ready, Shane not so much. She puts on her brave face, holds Quiara’s hand and gets ready for the experience. The doctor explains that first they will hear the mother’s heartbeat and then the baby’s will join in which happens just as she explained.
Quiara sniffles and gets emotional “Oh my God. Shane that’s our baby.” Shane listens intently then uses Bette and Tina’s line. “You know it sounds like horses stampeding through the mud.” Quiara is obviously touched by Shane’s observation and repeats it as she kisses her hand. Shane looks like she’s really trying to experience the moment, but she confesses later to Tess at the bar that she’s just not feeling it. Tess is back on the wagon; three days sober. As she and Shane are going over the books it’s a bit disappointing that they are not doing as well as Shane thought they should be at this point. Tess tells her to give it time, the bar is going to be OK, but Shane’s irritation has nothing to do with the bar, but instead with her reaction or lack thereof to having a baby. Tess gives her a pep talk that basically says communicate, communicate, communicate and communicate some more even if you think there is nothing new to say. “Talk to Quiara and tell her how you feel.”
Good advice, but does Shane take it. Not right away. We find Quiara sitting by herself in a restaurant. People are recognizing her, and it’s embarrassing and uncomfortable for her misery to be on public display. She’s obviously been stood up and she’s not happy. She walks out of the restaurant ready to leave when Shane comes running up to her apologizing for being late. Quiara is pissed. Shane had not called or texted her to say she was going to be late. Truth be told Shane was probably not going to show up, but she does and finally calms down her ex-wives anger and explains that today was really hard for her. When Quiara asks why she says “ I know I’m supposed to feel something when you hear your baby’s heartbeat for the first time Right? … I didn’t feel anything. Quiara doesn’t say anything so Shane continues. “And that scares me, because I don’t want to fuck it up.” Quiara just stares at Shane. “Say something, please anything.”. After a long pause Quiara says “That was really good.” Shane is incredulous at the reaction asking if Quiara heard what she said which she acknowledges yes. Shane wants to know how fix it, and Quiara tells her “there is nothing to fix. Okay. You’ll feel exactly what you are supposed to feel on your own time.” Shane seems relieved at Quiara’s apparent understanding but still wants to know if she isn’t just a little scared. Quiara is certain she’s not, but she will let Shane know if that changes. With everything back on course, they enter the restaurant to have dinner as planned.
Bette can’t seem to catch a break. As she and Dani are getting coffee, she gets the news that her opponent is rumored to be launching a hate campaign ad against her. Dani is so flustered that she forgets her manners and starts snapping at people in the coffee line. Bette admonishes her rude behavior then tells her that she doesn’t believe Milner will do that. Dani assures her to take it seriously. Bette doesn’t share the gravity of the situation and says they will fight with policy and voter outreach. “Your job is to help me shape my message and get it out into the world”. “As your acting campaign manager, I strongly advise you to at least let me prepare a negative ad. We don’t have to run it.” Bette responds “Okay, I hear you, and the answer is still no.” Dani tells Bette “It’s just really frustrating that you won’t let me do my job. I’m just trying to protect you.” Dani is then pulled away with yet another phone call and it doesn’t sound good. Bette looks a bit worried.
Later that evening we find Bette in her fancy kitchen sipping on wine; chopping and grinding the ingredients for the tagine meal she is preparing for Tina. The next scene is of Bette and Tina finishing up the meal, and pouring the last of the wine. Tina comments on how delicious the meal was, and Bette thanks her for letting her cook, as neither of them seem to have much time to do it lately. They make small talk about Tina’s day at the museum with Angie, and how great it is for them to spend time together. Bette comments that it’s great having Tina there and how happy it’s making Angie.
Tina agrees and tells Bette that she’s decided to get a place close-by so she can be in Los Angeles during her hiatus. Bette offers that Tina can stay with them while she looks for a place, but Tina is quick to squash that idea. The main reason being that she’s not getting the place for herself. Carrie is moving with her, and to make matters worse Carrie has asked Tina to marry her, and Tina said yes. Do you remember me saying poor Bette can’t catch a break? You can actually see her body jerk from the bullet that pierced her heart at this pronouncement. But Tina isn’t finished wounding Bette. Not only did she say yes to getting married, she wants Bette to join her and Carrie to tell Angie. Bette’s range of emotions are off the chart. She’s doing her best to be happy for Tina even offering to get champagne to celebrate but she can’t pull it off. Tina obviously doesn’t want to celebrate, Bette is avoiding, and Tina is shutting down. Bette gets up and starts for the kitchen to get the champagne then turns back and puts her hand on Tina’s cheek. “I’m so happy for you.” She pats Tina on the shoulder then walks into the kitchen. You see her silhouette in the background as she breaks down, and Tina in the foreground, conflicting emotions evident.
Bette, Shane and Alice
After leaving the ex-wives Alice goes over to Shane’s house. She bangs on the door saying, “they were fucking, and I wasn’t there”. Shane finally figures out that Alice is talking about Nat and Gigi. Alice said she didn’t “sign up for this” but Shane counters with “what did you expect?” Alice can’t really answer but she doesn’t get a chance because Bette is also at Shane’s house and she walks in from another room. Alice can’t handle seeing Bette. She’s still mad at her about the whole Felicity fiasco. Bette tells her that “she’s not the only one dealing with some really hard shit right now.” Bette said she was sorry once again. Alice wanted to know why she didn’t tell her she was sleeping with Felicity again thinking it was because of her reputation for not being able to keep secrets, but Bette tells her that it was because she feared being judged. Alice feels that she’s in no position to judge when she’s in a throuple with two ex-wives thinking Bette would judge her. Bette assures her that she’s not judging Alice either, and that Alice can talk to her. Alice opens up saying she feels stupid, but she really doesn’t want to lose Nat. Bette and Shane comfort their friend as best they can saying she’s not stupid, throuples are complicated. Alice and Bette hug, apologize and make up.
Alice meets up with the two ex-wives a few days later only to find out that they were together the whole time and worked out all their issues and now were ready for her to come home. Alice is furious for how they used her and took advantage of their arrangement to get back together. She realizes that she’s not needed and breaks up with them both.
Sophie gets a call during breakfast from her mother and sister telling her that her grandmother had a bad fall and possibly hit her head. She’s on the way to the hospital and they need Sophie there now. Dani offers to take off work and go with her, but Sophie tells her no. She will call if she needs anything. Her friend Finley hears the news at the same time as she is now living with Dani, Sophie and Micha but doesn’t say anything. Sophie rushes off and finds her mother and sister in the grandmother’s hospital room. The grandmother is awaiting surgery. As soon as the doctor leaves the mother says she doesn’t like her, the sister wonders if they should get a second opinion, their fears are surfacing, and hysteria is starting to rise again but Sophie puts a stop to it. She is obviously trying to stay strong when everyone else is falling apart. She leaves the room to get coffee and whatever food she can find saying the grandma is going to be fine. But as soon as she gets outside and closes the door she breaks down and starts crying. Great timing for Finley to show up with ‘supplies’ – Cheetos, Funyuns, Snoballs – all your major food groups. Sophie laughs at the humor, but her emotions take hold. Finley puts down the food and gathers her devastated friend in her arms providing much needed comfort and assurances that everything is going to be OK.
Hours later Sophie and Finley are still at the hospital in the waiting room. Sophie is complaining that she couldn’t believe Dani didn’t show up, when Finley reminded her that she told Dani not to come. Sophie obviously didn’t mean what she said and hoped that Dani would have ignored it and come anyway. Finley basically tells her that she needs to ask for what she wants from Dani. Sophie can’t seem to hold it together for long. She’s really worried that her grandmother is not going to be okay, but Finley continues to be her rock. Sophie shares memories of her grandmother. Finley listens intently interjecting humor and just being there for her friend. After a while she asks Sophie if she wants her to pray with her. Sophie is touched by the gesture knowing of Finley’s religious conflicts, but Finley is only concerned with doing whatever is needed to take away the pain and worry. They say a Hail Mary.
By the end of the night Sophie is overwhelmed with emotions from her worry about her grandmother, to being upset that Dani only showed up at the hospital for two minutes before being pulled away for another Bette Porter campaign crisis’s. Finley has been a presence and a source of strength the entire day. As they are saying good night, Finley tells Sophie that she loves her, and Sophie says it back. Finley starts to leave, and Sophie pulls her back. Finley just stands there in an awkward moment asking her ‘buddy’ what she’s doing but soon finds out when Sophie kisses her and starts caressing her body (not in a friend’s kind of way). They end up making out in the hospital hallway. The next day Sophie confides the kiss to her sister, and now has to decide if she should tell Dani.
Dani has spent her entire day on the phone doing double duty as PR and Campaign Manager since Pierce walked out on them after the last Felicity scandal where Bette pushed her husband down the stairs. Apparently, they weathered the storm on that one but now they had the issue of the negative smear campaign being launched by Milner. After Bette repeatedly refused to fight fire with fire Dani goes home to find Finley in her bedroom getting clothes for Sophie. They talk about what will happen if Bette wins or loses and how intense Dani’s job must be. However, in Finley’s opinion nothing should be more important than Dani being at her fiancé’s side in a time of family crisis. Dani goes to the hospital more out of guilt than obligation and is there two minutes before her phone alerts her of a message with a download of the video they had feared all along. She leaves Sophie and runs to Bette.
Dani: So, what we just do nothing? We can’t let him attack you like this.
Bette: I told you. I have morals, I have standards. And if you think I’m going to let this homophobic asshole take me down with this bullshit, you really don’t know me at all.
Dani is in awe of Bette Porter. When Bette offers her a whisky she says yes ‘please’. Bette pours the drinks then comes back to sit next to Bette on the couch and clink glasses.
Micah, Jose and Grace (Micah’s mother)
Michah, Jose and Grace are at a restaurant. It starts out great with Grace expressing how hungry she was, of course she’s got the munchies from the four cute little champagne-flavored gummy bears that she’d consumed. She’s so cute and innocent “But, I mean how was I supposed to know not to enjoy in excess.” She starts praising how thoughtful and responsible Micah is which embarrasses him but then the conversation takes a turn. Grace pulls out baby pictures of Micah before he transitioned and talked endlessly about her daughter, and what a beautiful little girl she was and how she could have been in the Cub Scouts had they been more forward thinking. She goes on and on about the picture and how she was a natural, and the photographer didn’t have to give her any direction for poses. Jose tries to steer the conversation away from her rambling saying he didn’t need to see the picture or hear any of it, but she keeps going. Jose is growing more uncomfortable and Micah more outraged until he can’t take it anymore and yells for her to stop. He tells his mother “that little girl is dead” and walks out of the restaurant. He doesn’t get too far as Jose is right behind him. Michah apologizes but Jose tells him there is no need to apologize. He so wanted Jose to meet his mother, but now regrets it. He thought she would be different with Jose. Jose calms him down. “I see you, the person in front of me for exactly who he is. You got me.” They kiss and Jose repeats “You got me.” Grace is watching the entire interaction between her son and his boyfriend through the plate glass window of the restaurant. In the end Grace must come to terms in her own heart and mind. She tells Micha that she promises to really try. She sees the love he and Jose have for each other, and it’s very real. Micha isn’t sharing his feelings with his mother. So, she resorts to the gummy bears that she picked up at the pot shop when she arrived that morning!