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“I just wish I could help her you know?”

“All you can do is be there for her Ashley…well…that’s if she…” my sister shrugs as she tries to tell me if Spencer wants to talk to me or be with me one or the other.

“Look…I’m guessing we’re okay for now…and I will be there for her one hundred percent.”

“You know you’re going to end up talking to her and having to tell her everything…”

I looked at her a little upset…more because I knew she was right. Why does everyone have to be right? I feel like the biggest jerk.

“Um…yeah, I know” I took a sip of my water as we just sat there on my couch for a brief second in silence.

“So…have you talked to-” way to break the silence Ky.

“I uh…don’t want to talk about it?”

“You don’t even know who I’m talking about…”

“Aiden”

“Okay…so you read minds…that’s a new one.”

I giggle softly as I look at her wanting some explanation to anyone of my ordeals.

“I don’t know what I’m going to do? What should I do?”

“Tell her the truth…I mean it was obviously easy to tell Aiden…Spencer should be a piece of cake.”

“Wait! What?…how do you know about that?”

“Oh…uh…I kind of…over heard you two talking…I was on the balcony.”

“So…why did you ask me if-”

“Well I just kind of wanted to see if you would tell me.”

I took another sip of my water. She is my sister, but I had gotten so used to keeping things to myself not having really anyone to talk to besides Spencer that I didn’t feel like I really needed to tell her. Especially it being about Aiden so I didn’t think she cared which brought me to being a little nosey with her.

“Considering all that had gone on at prom…I would think you’d be mad at him too…so why do you even care?” a hint of attitude, but not so much to where Kyla would notice.

“I don’t…actually it was pretty great how you told him off like that…” she laughs softly, while taking a sip from her mug, whatever she had in there.

I smiled.

“A best friend doesn’t do that…do they?” I said softly as I look down at the top from the water bottle.

Out of the corner of my eye I could see her shaking her head gently, “I’m sorry Ashley”

I look at her confusingly to her apology, “why?”

“It’s just…I know how much you love her…it’s all the love I’ve wanted to feel from somebody…since I saw you and Spencer…together.”

“Maybe…you’re problem is you need a girl” we laugh; I mean we both knew Kyla wasn’t gay.

“Trust me…if to feel love the way you two have it…I would definitely be with a girl…but I just don’t…I’m not…”

“Attracted to them?”

She nods, “exactly” smiling softly while taking another sip from her greenish colored mug.

The fun subsides and the silence between talking only made me think of Spencer more and more. God, I miss her.

“You know…I’ve never wanted so much…for school to start up again” then again…a small part of me wanted for it not to start up again…

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“Okay…can I take back what I said about wanting school to start up again?” my voice muffled from the blanket that was shielding me from the darn sun shining through my window.

I peak out from the blanket to see a thieving sister with my clothes.

“Thanks” she said, oh so innocently as she walked out.

I threw the blankets off and sluggishly climbed out of bed. I just sat at the edge for a second thinking on my plans for today.

The last two days felt so long without seeing Spencer’s face. If not for her…I wouldn’t be this enthusiastic about going to school at all.