I lay there reflecting it all every moment, in a misty haze coming in flashes and segments, had that been it ?
Sensing there eyes looking at me as I clenched mine shut shaking my head back and forth . Edward would not even look at me.  He so much hated what I had become,He always wanted me human. Was he that mad now?Why wont you look at me Edward, my mind screamed.

  *  I put on my best martyr face. "Alice, I know I told you I didn't want anything-"
    "But I didn't listen," she interrupted , smug "Open it. " *

     Flashes of that day's events lingered in my mind. Why couldn't they have listened too me…stupid vampires never listen to the silly little human, perhaps now they would .Ohh and they wonder why I hate my birthday. I opened my eyes seeing red. The burn in my throat was insanely painful. My body had slowly stopped pounding.The overwhelming burn now only lingered in that one place. So this is the thirst. I could heard more in my mind, I saw less, in my murky mind but.Nothing in those eyes was clear non of my life seemed clear. Still Edwards velvet voice rang through my mind loud as old church bells echoing in the distance. His voice echoed in the haze of my mind. How does he always do that. I wondered still reflecting on the party.

  *   I didn't spend a dime, " Edward assured me. He  brushed a strand of hair from my face, leaning my skin tingling from his touch.
      I inhaled deeply and turned to Alice. "Give it to me, " I sighed.
      Emmett chuckled with delight.
      I took the little package, rolling my eyes at Edward  while I struck my finger under the edge of the paper and jerked it under the tape.
     "Shoot," I muttered  when the paper sliced my finger; I pulled it out to examine the damage A single drop of blood oozed from my tiny cut.
    It all happened very quickly then.*

       Laughing to my self quickly was and understatement. Emmett quirked his eyebrow at me. "Ohh my god she is laughing " he choked out expecting more a scream maybe, anything. Crying calling for someone, a whimper? A laugh was not what anyone had expected. Edward slowly turned to face me he had been holding my hand. He was numb sitting at my side for hours, days. He was there unmoving without a doubt feelin guilty for how things unfurled. The room was now filling. Alice popped her head in the door Jasper slowly in her wake both moving slowly wearing darker then normal colors, almost like mourning me.  Why are they all so sad he didn't kill me well sorta but not in the bad way. "Look at her she is stunning Ed you really should look at her" Emmett coaxing Edward. They almost acted as if I was not there, I felt like a crops no one seemed to speak to me.