Okay I would love to comment to all of you but alas I cant its midnight and I must BE at work by six…The guy I work with got transferred and hes like the best in the company and they replacing him with someone that everyone hates….so the next few days will either be no fiction or angry fiction ( or because of M-rave, randy fiction) anyway everyone wants to know what was in the envelope…thats funny cuz I just happened to write this chapter last week….hope you downloaded your song. FOOL OF ME from the LOVE AND BASKETBALL soundtrack…NIX – Ill make a willy shakes comment in the next…but I wont tell you where it is in the past ones. OKAY Im going to bed. Three in one day and I already have carpal tunnel (sp?) And arthritis….I know I have the oldest 22 year old body on the planet….but alas I can bench 275 for 3reps….(no Im not lying, take a deep breath) PEACE out ~wiggles her eyebrows a certain cyber vixen~

Chapter 30.5


I remember
when you filled my heart with joy

Tina pulled a stack of papers from the manila envelope to reveal a stack of glossy black and white photos. The top photo was a picture of Bette and Shane sitting on the steps having lunch. She smiled to herself at the goofy face Bette was making. She was obviously making fun of Shane who was bandaged from her broken nose.

was I blind to the truth
just there to fill the space

Tina tried to think back to the last time she had lunch with Bette but couldnt remember. It seemed like no matter how many times she insisted, there was no way to get Bette to make time for her lately.

cause now you have no interest in me
anything that I have to say
and Ive allowed you to make me feel
I feel so dumb
what kinda fool am I when you so easily set me aside


Tina: I wonder why Bette would send a photo of this to me…but who took this photo if…

Tina flipped to the next photo to see Bette sitting in Shanes lap. Shane was sitting in her chair at work with her head tilted back. Bette was on the phone smiling ear to ear and her finger was in Shanes mouth.

Tina: Who sent these….maybe they are seeing what Ive seen.

You made a fool of me
tell me why
You say that you dont care
but we made love
tell me why

The room began to spin as she flipped to the next photo. She looked at Bette sitting in Shanes lap on the same steps as the first photo. They were out in public. They had the nerve to be in public flaunting what they were doing. Shane was smiling in a way that Tina had never seen before.

I want to kiss you
does she want you with the pain that I do

Tina: Ive never seen Shane this happy around anyone, and Bette hasnt been this happy in months.

Bette was wiping something from Shanes mouth and they both looked at each other seductively. Tina flipped to the next photo to see Shane holding a bloody rag to her face.

I can smell you in my dreams
and now when were face to face
you wont look me in the eyes
no time, no pressure, no love

Tina: Bette was with her when she broke her nose….she only said she brought her to the hospital.

you say I dont touch you
I cant touch you no more
Cant touch you anymore
anymore

The two women sat on the floor with their backs to a mirror. Shane was sweaty and her hair was a mess. She looked at Bette with remorse and Bettes face responded in pain. Tina could tell from the pictures that Bette was upset that Shane was hurt. The next photo was in the same room, but Shane had her head on Bettes shoulder and she was crying.

The bile began to rise in Tinas stomach as she flipped to the next photo. Shane and Bette were standing outside and Bette was dangling a set of keys in front of Shane. They both stood in front of a giant black truck with a bow on the hood. The next photo Shane was jumping up and down. Tina had to make it through the stack. She trembled as she turned to see Shane hugging the hood of the truck.

you say that you dont care
you just dont care
we made love
tell me why
you made a fool of me

Tina thought back to the night before. They made love all night long. Bette sat in her bed and professed her undying wish to reclaim the love they once had.

Tina: How could I be so stupid? I let her make a complete fool of me.

Tinas stomach wrenched and she grabbed the edge of the desk to hold her weight steady. She closed her eyes and took in several deep breaths. The pain was coming at her too fast. Shes never had a panic attack this bad before, and she didnt want to start. She opened her eyes to see a new black and white photo. This one was taken from across the street. The picture went through a window and showed Shane topless pinning Bette to a bed. Bette was laughing and screaming as Shane straddled her. Tina began dry heaving and shaking violently. She held tight to the desk. Hoping to regain control of her body. She was torn between to extremities. She had to finish the photos but she couldnt. She kept breathing through the pain hoping it would at least settle the nausea. She turned to the next photo and opened her eyes. Shane was sunk down in the passenger seat of the Saab. The top was down and blood appeared to be seeping through the bandages on her face. The two looked at each other as if they didnt want to say goodbye. Bette stroked the side of Shanes swollen face. It was obvious that this photo came from after the hospital because they were both wearing hospital scrubs.

Tina: The scrubs

Tina flipped back to the photo of Bette and Shane in bed. They were both wearing the same pants.

Tina: She was gone when I woke up the next day…she said she had errands to run…she went to Shane.

Tina fell to her knees and began to vomit. She clenched the photos with everything she had. She grit her teeth together and braced her hands on the floor. She sat on all fours breathing and panting like a dog. Tina pushed the papers back into the envelope and held them to her chest. She began to sob uncontrollably.

Tina saw a photo turned upside down on the floor. She flipped it over to see Bette and Shane sitting in what looked like a church. They were in a pew and Bette had her arms around Shane. Shanes head was resting on Bettes shoulder as Bette kissed her on the forehead. They both had streaks from tears running down their cheeks. Shane was clinging to Bette and running one had along her cheek. Fade to Black.


~FOOL OF ME~
I remember
when you filled my heart with joy
was I blind to the truth
just there to fill the space
cause now you have no interest in me
anything that I have to say
and Ive allowed you to make me feel
I feel so dumb
what kinda fool am I when you so easily set me aside

You made a fool of me
tell me why
You say that you dont care
but we made love
tell me why
you made a fool of me
you made a fool of me

I want to kiss you
does she want you with the pain that I do
I can smell you in my dreams
and now when were face to face
you wont look me in the eyes
no time, no pressure, no love
you say I dont touch you
I cant touch you no more
Cant touch you anymore
anymore

you made a fool of me
tell me why
tell me why
you say that you dont care
you just dont care
we made love
tell me why
you made a fool of me
tell me why
why am I such a fool
you made a fool of me
tell me why.