Shattered

The two bottles of beer sat there on the table untouched, the condensation rolling down the brown glass like tears. Shane had been staring at them for an hour willing herself to either throw them away or drink them, but neither option seemed right. When she had purchased the beers the intention had been to share, one for Carmen and one for herself. While they were sipping at them they would talk, and make jokes, and because of the noise in The Planet Carmen would have to lean in closer to her letting her sent waft over the taller girl. But instead Shane had parked herself at a secluded table in the back where no one would bother her and stared at two bottles of beer for the last hour.

When she had seen Carmen lean in and kiss Jenny the feelings that had come over her had been unexpected. The fact that she had felt anything had been new territory. It wasnt necessarily painful, it felt more like an uncomfortable knot in the pit of her stomach, like she had forgotten something but couldnt place what exactly it was. She knew that Carmen had seen her on stage performance. She knew that Carmen hadnt kissed Jenny for the same reasons. There was no one watching. She had simply done it because she wanted to.

She reached out and grabbed one of the bottles and began rolling it around on its base watching the liquid wash around the inside.

Is that for me, a voice asked from behind her.

Carmen moved to the seat across from Shane and sat down.

Yea. Shane didnt look up, instead pushing the beer over to the other girl.

Thanks. Im off if you want to get together. At this Shane looked up. Carmen was smiling her usual knockout smile, her hat tipped low, and her shirt clinging in all the right place. Damn she was hot.

Not really, I have a client in the morning, she said and watched the smile fall of Carmens face. The knot in her stomach tightened a bit.

Okay, well how about tomorrow night, she asked, taking a sip of her beer.

Dont you have plans with Jenny. The look on Carmens face was one of unmasked surprise, until understanding dawned on her. She looked down at her beer.