Part 5

Watching Tina face struggle in vain, Bette knew she was hurting Tina. She let go of her grip. You hated me from the very beginning. Tear were all over her face.

I hate you. I REALLY do. As Tina sat up straight on the side of the bed, crying.

With her head hung, and shoulder slump, tears rolling down her face uncontrollably, Tina finally drag her eyes to meet with Bette. I hate that you never grow up, you cant give me the sense of security. I hate that you giving in to my needs so easily without even fight for your own! I hate you letting go everything just to be with me! I hated myself for not being able to love you like you loved me!

Tina knew she love Bette. But yet at the same time, she couldnt stop herself from hurting Bette. She saw that her behavior is taking a toll on Bette. She made Bettes life miserable. She could never love anyone as she loved Bette. Why couldnt I be the person you wanted me to be? Why couldnt I have worked it out with you? Why was it so hard for me to let go of the most evil thing in me? And why couldnt I be there for you when you needed me? Even after these agonizing years, you still hold my heart

Im sorry. Hurt and guilt was harboring in Bette eyes.

Tinas heart broke at the sight of Bette. She sliding down from the wall, curled up like a lost child, sobbing. This slammed at Tina like a freight train. I’ve done it again. How can I love her so wrong?

Tina takes a deep breath and said, No love is perfect, theres no who is right and whos wrong. We tried. But both of us are self-centered and self-infallible. We thought we can be Eve and Adam. But as soon as we left the Eden Garden, thats another story. We shouldnt eat the forbidden fruit, we shouldnt cross that line. Once we are banishing from the there and fall back to reality, we will start hurting each other No I will hurt you and you will always forgive me. And we both end up hating each other for all the damage we bring on to each other.