Seeing Bette face turning pale, Tina took her hand, Im not officially a nun or anywhere near it. I just found peace here is quiet and there is so much time to reflect for what Ive done before.

Do I never give you any happiness? Bette asked.

Time we spend together; you show me a lot of things. You let me to get to know myself. The more I get to know myself, the more confusing I get. Perhaps I prefer the simple happiness and peace that they offer here.

Is that is? All this while you are just searching for a simple happiness?

Is not something you get from a shelf, Bette. Happiness is not something you can just give or take. You cant just look for it. Is just a feeling. You have to feel it. To be able to feel happiness is very important for a woman.

I guess I just have to understand. Bette reluctantly said.

You will help others to feel happiness in their life. I need to go now. Tina looked down on the pavement. And you should start make others happy too.

I dont know if I can do that any more. Bette sadly said.

Yes you will. You will meet someone that is worthy of your love and you will let her feel the happiness you bring to her. Just like what you did to me.

As Tina slowly turn and started to walk back to the monastery, Bette asked, Can I still write to you?

Tina stopped and turn to Bette, Who want to write letter anymore? She pulled out a lap top from the bag and said, This is the 21st century, everything is modernized, and that everything included monastery. You still have my e-mail address, use it. Tina winked.

Watching the tall and skinny body frame of Tina disappeared under the bright sunlight; Bette felt her head getting heavier. She held a cab to the Lhasa Hotel. She was twisting and tossing all night on the bed, half because of the acute mountain sickness, the other half because of the heart-breaking true. She recalled the story Tina told her before she walked out from her life. Her Eve has gone back to the innocent Eden Garden. She was the left behind, tormenting each day in the ruin of what were once they beautiful relationship.

She went back to Paris, packed up and leaves what she called home. Bringing with her regrets, guilt and sadness, she returned to LA. This is where all the happy memories start. She still could feel her here, in LA.

One day, Bette got another e-mail from Tina, telling her that she is coming to see her in LA.

Bette thought Tina finally changed her mind and decide to come back to her. She was disappointed to see Tina showed up dress like a nun. She orders a bottle of Blue Nun, the only wine they both like, to offer her most sincere blessing. Bette felt her life is nothing more but an incredible dream, she never thought her relationship with Tina would turn out to be like this.

Whats make you come back here T?

I need to see a Dharma in India.

Bette was confused. She could have gone to India from Tibet. Why is she taking the long route?

I need to see you too Bette. There is just one thing that I just cant let go. Tina shifted her eyes to look at Bette.

And I will miss you. With these said, Tina stand up and walk out.

Bette looked at Tina and realized that this is what she need. From Tinas eyes, she saw their story, which can never be erase. Bette thought that their love was over, but the memories of them together were the one thing in her life that she knew she could never replace. Most of their time together had been good or even far beyond good and some of it fairly miserable. But in the end, the physical distance between them light the path to eternity, from agonize to longing. Maybe there will be the time when Tina miss her too much, she will come back and stay. And maybe by then she will understand the deepest love between them is not as wrong as she once thought it is. And maybe she will realize that Bette love for her couldnt and wouldnt be stop by heaven and earth.

the end