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    Silent All These Years (Chapter One)

    Story written on February 25, 2006 by Professional Widow.
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    Tina arrives home from Vancouver. Is Bette looking for a fight?

    Bette sat back, a wave of exhaustion washing over her. The only thing keeping her awake was the hum of nervousness circulating throughout her entire body. Tina had been in Vancouver with Josh, as she had just learned from her wife’s assistant and tonight was the night she was due home. Against her better judgment, Bette started that torturous imaginary conversation with Tina in her mind and spent the better part of an hour doing so. Just as the imaginary argument was about to be resolved with imaginary make-up sex, Tina slunk in the door, looking guilty as sin. Bette had a million questions, most of them utterly unanswerable, but only one left her shapely lips.

     

    “How was Vancouver?”

    “Good Um, there’s a lot of talented writers in BC, apparently”

    “Mmm-hmm Tee, could we talk for a bit?”

     

    As much as Bette wanted to indict Tina and hang her with her own lies, what she really, truly wanted was her life back, for her wife to love her and to have the family she’d dreamed of. She could never muster the anger she wanted to, or at least not since her dalliance with the carpenter.

     

    “Did you run into anyone you knew from Alphaville or whatever?”

    “No. Nobody from my former life. Anyway, Bette, I really want to get to bed, I’m totally jet lagged and I’m about to leak on my favourite suit jacket, so could the interrogation wait until tomorrow?”

     

    Tina glanced over at Bette then quickly picked up her bags with no request for assistance, as if the very nearness of her partner would cause her to confess her sins. Not once since she’d gotten home had Tina looked Bette in the eye. Despite her recent deceits, the blonde was still honest by nature and still one of the worst liars Bette had ever known. She knew Tina would rather avoid the subject than lie directly, something she was slightly more adept in.

     

    As Tina made her way to the bedroom, Bette made a last-ditch effort to connect with her increasingly distant wife.

     

    “I missed you.”

     

    Tina stilled in the hall briefly, stemming a tide of tears she refused to shed for the woman who had wounded her so badly over a year ago. She looked back at Bette, sighed, and continued down the hall.

     

    ‘How did this happen to us?’ Bette thought, her head in her hands, tears running down her palms and into her sleeves. Finally, it hit. Every fight, every issue, every low blow came flooding back. The money, Helena, Josh, the affair which Bette was still punishing herself for suddenly poured forth. She clapped her hand over her mouth to quiet her sobs; Tina would have a fit if Angelica woke up.

     

    Tina tried desperately to ignore the sounds of her partner’s grief, unpacking loudly and recalling all the reasons why she had every right to be angry with Bette. Her own guilt, though, was beginning to eat her up. It seemed every time Bette opened her mouth she felt this welling of rage, which she wasn’t hesitant in expressing, then instead of being fulfilled by this, she was drained and saddened. Tina was slowly coming to realize her anger was emptying her, yet she couldn’t stop it from bursting out. ‘This is fucking emotional Tourrets Syndrome’ she thought to herself.

     

    Bette looked at the stove clock, the digits obscured by her tears. She blinked them away, took a deep breath and looked again. 2:30 am. ‘Shit I can’t do this right now.’ She needed to be at work (‘for once’ she smirked to herself) early tomorrow and would undoubtedly be late getting into bed for one reason or another. She decided to save the cry for another time, compartmentalize and then release. When release would come, though, she had no idea.

     

    To be continued

     

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    4. Tina is the type that will let guilt eat her up and the way she feels about Bette now will end up in hate/ Hate is harder to forget than guilt. Bette is heartbroken. But her stubborness will win out over her deep love for Tina. She is willing to be a babysitter for Angelica , But Tina really wants her to get a job, and still do all the good stuff Tina ,bless her heart is confused. thanks

    8. This is a very good start. We readers (and viewers)are like blind folks, crying in the wilderness. We really haven’t a clue what went on in those previous 6 months and why (oh why) they are in such tatters now. Thank you for filling in some of the blanks with your own version.

    13. Great start – I’m happy to hear you were inspired to write…a pleasure to see your name as an author. I enjoy it when the inner workings of the characters are examined via a glimpse at their thoughts and you’ve done this very well. Look forward to much more of the story.

    14. First, I’ve always liked your name. But I also like writers who are able to give their characters depth and explore their motivations and internal life, which you’ve started here. Do go on.

    16. Wonderful, heartwrenching start. I could feel Bette’s agony…could feel Tina’s guilt. Thank you for joining the ranks! Looking forward to the next chapter!

    18. wow, great start, another new author is just what we need…as JKS and the bunch never post as often as we want or need…but again that would be everyday all day…this sounds like a great start and you can see everyone influence pls keep it coming!!!

    22. Greetings Professional Widow. I agree with the others- the emotional conflicts are really coming out. What’s more…it makes sense…more sense than what I’ve seen on tv. The way it plays out makes your subtle ending leaving us wanting for much more. Please continue. I look forward to the next chapter.

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