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” When did it go wrong?” Kit asked curiously. ” Well, that is the hard point we’re getting to now, so pour me another glass and I’ll tell you, as you really want to know” Bette says in a fake cheerful voice, a bit lightheaded already from the wine, but that is good, she thinks, it soothes the pain that will definitely come now  as she has to relive it all again. The things she has pushed at the back of her mind, experiences put well away in the far end of her memory, the reason why  she doesn’t look at the DVD’s.

 Bette looks at the bottle and notices that it’s almost empty, so she better gets on with her story, otherwise she will be speaking drunk and might not know exactly what she had said to Kit tomorrow.But before she moves on, she needs Bette to promise her one thing.”Kit before i move on, you have to make a promise to me”  Kit looks at her and knows that she has to agree otherwise otherwise Bette won’t tell her the rest.” Ok, i might not like it, but yes i will promise that to you”.”i do not want you mention this conversation to any of the girls or to T..” ( she is not able to say her full name).I do not want you do discuss about it to either me or her, what’s done is done. It was my desicion, maybe not be best one in my life, but i did it. It is our problem and i dealt with it my way”.She hadn’t spoken to anybody about this, she relived it many times while she was sitting on her terrace in the evenings. Even Alice didn’t know, although she had been really pushy on the phone to find out why she had left so suddenly.
 By know she sits down and stares into space in the dark instead of looking at Kit. Kit grabs her hand and sqeezes it, to let her sister know she is there for her.Bette shows no emotions, her face is blank and her eyes are just deep dark chocolate brown pools.

” Well as I said, things looked like they were planned just fine, we started our agreement on the Monday  and got through the week as planned. That Saturday I had her, so she could stay over sleeping at my place Friday night. Everything was going great, things looked like they weren’t so badly planned after all. Little did I know about the fact how much I would miss Angel when she was not with me and yet so close by. Before the agreement I had her almost all the time with me, and now only these few days. I got fucked up the next week for not seeing her in the weekend, as T.. had said she couldn’t let Angelica stay with me that weekend because they had plans to go for a little camping trip. So on the next Monday I told T.. that she owed me an extra day that week for missing one of the weekend days. She looked at me as if I was crazy and just told a sick joke. ” You must be kidding, right?” she said. ” No I’m not, the agreement was, one of the weekend days and I got none!” I said loudly, getting angry at her for being so Not understanding. But instead of arguing that morning, I left it that way and spend my day with Angelica. I brought her back that evening as planned. The next day I had planned to spend with Alice, so no time to think of my little girl. When Wednesday came, I had thought of phoning T.. to let her know I would take that extra day on Thursday, as Angel was suppose to be with me anyway on Friday and Saturday so I had her 4 days in a row. When I made my call and told her she was just speechless at first. Then got all angry and was totally not amused, to say the least, and was not agreeing in this deal. She brought her over with just stuff for one day, so I knew the deal didn’t go through. But by the time the day was ended I was so fucked up that I almost refused to give Angel back to her. But I let her take her and got myself drunk that night to drink away the misery I felt . When the morning came, I had the biggest hangover possible and was still so pissed off with Her that I made a decision.

I got in my car drove over to her place, rang the bell, I was on a mission that’s how it felt, nothing could stop me. When some woman opened the door, I didn’t even notice it, I just pushed her out of the way and went straight for Angelica. The woman had followed me and asked me who I was and what I was thinking by walking in just like that. I realized then that it wasn’t T.. but somebody else, which made me even more pissed off. You know, she didn’t want me to have Angel but wasn’t even there herself!! I said loudly”” Who am I? I’m her mother and I will take her with me right now, so get out of my way”” I picked Angel up and headed for the door, passing the woman , who stood still unable to move by surprise.