The line begins to blur PT 3

CH 6

 Confusion in her eyes that says it all, she’s lost control.

As she’s clinging to the nearest passer by, she’s lost control.

As she gave away the secrets of her past and said, “I’ve lost control again.”

And the voices told her when and where to act, she’s lost control again.

The dream is always the same.

Mom telling Pop and me go ahead to the Stars game. She doesn’t feel good. Her tummy hurts. She kisses us goodbye. We, Pop and Me are on the turnpike. I forget my lucky puck. Pop says “don’t worry Hun; we’ll get it the Stars need all the help they can get. Pop tells me stay in the car he’s just gonna be a second. Then I hear yelling really bad yelling. I get out go up the same stairs. I see Pop throwing all his stuff around. I see the shotgun. I ask “what’s going on”, He doesn’t answer. I see him yelling at the man with mom, who is the man? Then I see blood from the man. It splashes on the wall behind him. I see mom crying over him. I see her begging pleading, she says “bye Shane”, and she falls forward. There’s more this time. Dad is telling me to get my stuff. He says we are going away. He asks if I like the beach. As we are running out, Carmen is there. In a cop car. But she doesn’t get out or hit the flashers.

I don’t wake up yelling from the dreams anymore,

Why was Carmen there?

 I am in a pool of sweat. I get out of bed and head for the shower. Mark is sitting on my couch with a grim look on his face.

“Hey buddy why so glum? I asked.

“You saw her again didn’t you?”

I nod.

“What the hell Shane. If my dad finds out ….”

“I know, Mark I know. I can’t fight her. I can’t ignore her. There’s something about her. I don’t know what it is.”

“Well fuck I can tell you what it is. You’re fucking in love with her. It’s not hard to see. You should have seen yourself at Elliot’s’ party. You look like you got hit by a truck when you saw her. Anyway I won’t say anything. Fuck him already. I sick of his shit anyways.  We have work tonight are we ready?”