La Mer PT 9

CH 15

“When my mom died I didn’t blame anyone. I didn’t curse the sun, or the stars or any of the other things that mom and I couldn’t look at anymore. I didn’t rebel, I didn’t make life hard for my dad, when he tried like 5 years later to find a new woman in his life; I was cool with it. When I told him I was gay. He blamed himself; he blamed me not having a mom to you know to show me how to be a girlie girl. When I met Sara and I bought her home cause at the time she was the love of my life, dad was cool. He thought that I made a great choice in her, and…..um…..when I made the final cut in softball, when Sara ripped my guts out, when…..when….I moved down here to go to school…and um…to get you know get away…dad…he uh he supported me. My dad was the most important person in my life and….he came all the way down here…to die. So…..I love my dad…and I hope he and mom….he umm….. and mom I hope they are walking in the light you know….walking. Thank you.”

Shane always knows what to say. And she left everyone with a nice picture of her dad. It was a small ceremony just her friends from the hospital and that viper Sara was there but she stayed away. She seemed upset about his death and I wondered looking at them if there was not something real between them? Sara left as soon as Shane finished her eulogy.

The only funeral I have ever been to was my grandfather’s. I was in high school and it was something I didn’t know how to deal with. And seeing Shane, I knew what I had to do. I had to get away. She didn’t need me around her while she was trying to grieve. She helped me all she could. And we just didn’t know each other and she can’t grieve for her father and help me. So after the funeral I was gonna go back home. This just is not the right time for us to be together.