Wreckless Love Post 9

It was wickedly hot and the strain of the demand for electricity led the county to initiate rolling blackouts rather than plunge everyone into darkness.  Jodi was grateful that Bette had a pool. It took the edge off what would have been an unbearable day.  Bette was napping in the lounge chair and the smile on her face indicated that she was having a nice dream.

I hope it’s a wet dream she thought the urge for her lover was strong.  She leaned over her and the shadow and drops of water startled Bette awake.  She kissed her and Bette pushed her away. 

“It’s too hot.”  Bette held her off.

“You like it hot.” Jodi moved to straddle her hips.

“Not this type of hot.” Bette said seriously dousing her arousal.

“What the fuck is going on?”  She stormed off when Bette failed to answer. 

She realized some time ago that Bette was still in love with Tina.  She even pushed for their reconciliation but as Bette drew further away she found it hurt and it was not a feeling that she liked.  She realized with a start that against her better judgment she had fallen for Bette.  She loved the brunette’s passion and her willingness to stretch herself and when she was hot she was a joy in bed.  She suddenly discovered that she wanted that, wanted her to stay.   

She watched her dress to go to a meeting with Tina and a therapist for Angie.  The outfit was casual yet hot and she resented that Tina would indirectly enjoy looking at her and having her attention for the next few hours. 

“I’ll call you tomorrow” Bette stood before her kissing her gently before taking her leave. 

Bette she noted had not asked her to spend the night.

Bette pulled into The Planet to pick up coffee before their meeting with Dan.  Kit was agitated still embroiled in battle with the new owners of Shebar.  Bette made comforting noises but her attention was elsewhere.  Kit’s eyes narrowed when she heard Bette order coffee the way Tina took it.  There was something about the way Bette placed the order that set off alarms.

“Where’s Jodi?”  Kit asked suddenly. 

“Probably on her way to her place” Bette answered glancing at her watch. 

“So what are you doing ordering coffee for Tina?”

“We have an appointment with Dan Foxworthy tonight to talk about some issues that have come up with Angie.”  Bette lied.

“There ain’t nothing wrong with Angie.”  Kit stated flatly.  “Jodi is good for you, are you thinking about messing that up?” 

“Tina is better” Bette squared her shoulders; it was only a matter of time before it would be out.

Kit stared at her.  That was confirmation of her suspicions.  She liked Tina but hated how hurt Bette had been for years after the break up of that relationship.  There were moments that she worried that Bette would never find her footing again.  With Jodi Kit finally felt that she had her sister back and whole.  She knew that Bette was just as responsible as Tina for the ending and the ugliness that ensued still she preferred the place Bette was in now to where she had been. 

“You shouldn’t hurt Jodi she has been nothing but good for you.”  Kit threw out.

“Jodi and I share a passion for art and creative expression and little else.  I work very hard to be with her and still… I don’t belong. The deaf world is even more closed than the lesbian world.  I could… we could bridge that gap if the love were strong enough … I just don’t feel that for her.”  Bette confessed meeting Kit’s eyes that watched her steadily.

“You feel that strongly about Tina to risk your heart again?”

“I do.”

“I hope you know what you are doing” Kit finally responded seeing that there was nothing else to be said.  Bette spoke with a certainty that she knew only too well.  She never really understood how the love that Bette and Tina had for one another went so wrong in the first place.  She only wanted her sister to be happy.