Chapter 12

After a few hours, I wake up. I smile when I see Tina lying in my arms and I love the feel of her, the warmth radiating off her body. She is still wearing not but her bra and panties and it has become chiller inside the room. I throw a blanket over us and wish I could snuggle even closer to her. I wish I could crawl into her and wrap my arms around her inner core, and I still wouldn’t be close enough. I’ve never felt this urge to be one so strongly, to be so together with the other person that the difference disappears. It dawns on me – I have never been this much in love. In fact, I’ve never even been in love. This is the first time I think about a girl day and night, the first time that a girls’ smile can make my day and that I don’t really feel like waking up if I know I’m not going to see her. It’s the first time that the thought that a girl has a boyfriend at home whom she has sex with makes me sick at the pit of my stomach, a thought I can’t bare, I have to exile from my mind.

I bury my nose in the nape of her neck and her vanilla scent just about makes me faint. She moves her head slightly, revealing her neck a bit more. I hesitate – should I? – and decide to go for it. I softly place my lips on the part of her neck, savouring the taste of the flesh. I can’t resist and lick it slightly, careful not to wake her up and scare her away. I really want to roam her back, press her against me even closer if possible, kiss her lips and suck her tongue but I know I can’t, I know this isn’t the right time. This isn’t what she wants right now. The magical moment of silence was almost sacred to Bette and she had a smile on her face drifting back to sleep. It was the voice of her aunt that woke her.

“Bette? Bette, are you there?”

Before Bette had had the chance to get out of the bed and hush her aunt, Lucy was already standing in the doorway. Bette had just flipped the blanket. Lucy had a look on her face that was both sceptical and unbelievingly.