Shane: I have to go.

Carmen: Now

Shane: Yes I need to go back to my place to get my clothes and then head to work.

Carmen: Ok I’ll see you later.

I just nod as Carmen lays back in the crumpled sheets. Sheets that is still moist from our sex. I drove back to my place and walk inside.

Shane: Hey Jenny.

Jenny: Ryan called again Shane.

Shane: What did you tell her?

Jenny: The truth.

Shit please if there is a God please let her not have told her the real truth.

Jenny: That you were out catching up with an old friend. That is what you were doing right Shane?

I just stare at Jenny not knowing how to answer.

Jenny: Ryan is a nice girls Shane if you are going to continue with Carmen then you need to let her know. I don’t want to have to lie anymore or be the one to break her heart.

I just nod my head and watch as Jenny turns back to her laptop. I hurry to take a shower to get the smell of Carmen off of me. I can’t resist her for some reason even though I don’t want to lose Ryan there is something primal about me and Carmen. The chemistry is there but it maybe just strictly sexual. I know I loved Carmen for a moment in time but that was until Ryan. That girl has invaded my body and soul but Carmen was my first real love. I don’t know what to do but I do know that I need to make a decision fast because it is hard to juggle the two and at the same time it isn’t fair. I look at myself in the mirror disgusted. I need time to think. I don’t have another appointment until later and I really need somebody to talk to. I go to Alice’s house she is the one I go to for advice even though she can’t hold water.

Alice: What’s up fatty?

Shane: I need help Alice.

Alice: Ok what is it?

Shane: I did something bad.

Alice: How bad?

Shane: I’ve been cheating on Ryan.

Alice doesn’t look shocked and I can’t blame her because of my past.