Shane: With Carmen.

Now Alice is shocked.

Alice: Holy shit for how long? You must have a lot of frequent flyer miles to go to NY.

Shane: Carmen is not in NY Alice she is in L.A.

Alice just looks at me and I nod.

Alice: Why Shane?

Shane: I don’t know she wanted to get me back

Alice: No stupid I am not asking why she is in L.A. I am asking why do this to Ryan. If you want Carmen back then why don’t you just break up with Ryan?

Shane: Because I don’t want to lose Ryan.

Alice: But you can’t have both Shane.

Shane: What do you think I should do?

Alice: I am biased because I was there for the Carmen aftermath and I saw how much she hurt you. I also saw how Ryan made you smile again and actually let go so my vote is for Ryan but I am not you Shane.

Shane: I know but you are my best friend.

Alice: How about a pro’s and con’s list?

Shane: No Al what are we in fifth grade.

Alice: A cosmo compatibility quiz?

Shane: ALICE please be serious. I am really screwed.

Alice: Ok close your eyes.

I just stare at her.

Alice: Trust me ok. Close your eyes and I am going to ask you questions say the first name that comes to mind.

Shane: Ok.

Alice: Who have you had the most fun with?

Shane: Ryan

Alice: Who have you had the hotter sex with?

Shane: Carmen mainly because it’s angry and aggressive.

Alice: I don’t want info just name is ok. Who do you feel more open with?

Shane: Ryan.

Alice: Who knows more about you?

Shane: Ryan

Alice: Who do you love?

Shane: I have love for Ryan and Carmen.        

Alice: Fine since you are so complicated who are you in love with?

Shane: Ryan

Alice: There goes your answer.

I open my eyes and I am shocked. I am in love with Ryan. That explain a lot. The guilt, the fear of letting her go.

Shane: But if I am in love with her how can I hurt her.

Alice: The ones who love you always hurt you the worst. It’s a big cosmic joke that’s why I don’t believe in God that and because Beyonce is straight.