The L Wing

Chapter 306

NARRATION OF FIRST LADY TINA KENNARD PORTER

I am walking along the beach looking at the ocean which really does look beautiful and really inviting – but I am walking alone. I am trying to get my head around the latest blow to me – the rumour that I am screwing Helena behind Bette’s back. Who the hell is behind all this crap ? Do people really think that I am unfaithful to Bette – only a 14 months after the birth of our daughter ? God this is all crazy and all just so untrue. There is no freaking proof that Helena and I have been spending nights together. I am really trying to control my anger – its not anger at Bette  – its frustration because she is right – I am being got at here ?  I kep walking and when I reach a thick wall that is obviously the boundary of the beach I turn around and walk back – kicking at stones and piles of sand. Who started this rumour ? When did this start ? What night are they refering to ? I start calming down and start using my brain.

London – after the Save the Children banquet  – fed royally by Nigella and we sat and drank coffee and ate chocolate. Helena told me about her splitting up with Alana and that she was still going to go ahead with having a baby. What time did we finish ? Well it certainly wasn’t all damn night. She stayed about 90 minutes – maybe two hours. I thought she was crazy to end it with Alana and Helena was really upset and down. I just could not understand the whole relatinship – it proved to me that Alana was too selfish and self obsessed to commit to one woman and have a child with her. The whole conversation made me ever more grateful to have someone as loyal and loving as Bette as my life partner. Bette must have doubts – she cannot be as calm and cool as she seems to be – but she is. I do not see any distrust with her and that’s really a big thing because she does have a jealous streak especially given the differences in our levels of experience. So I need to find out who started this rumour – who said to the rest of the press pack “ hey guess what – the First Lady spent the night with  her Chief of Staff ? “ when I find the bastard I will make sure that I make their lives really bloody hard – bastard. I take a few deep breaths and sit on a rock – this is just beautiful out here. And this was all arranged by Bette  – someone whose time is so heavily in demand. She has decided to stick all the meetings and protocol and take me away for a dream holiday. Our daughter is with my parents so we are alone – there is nothing else that I could want. I am alone with my wife – the woman I love and the woman I would pick over every other lesbian on the planet. I need to be with her – and I need to show her just how much