Chapter 4

Tina couldn’t believe what she had just heard. She felt her stomach turned and her heart beat accelerated, her body was trembling and a lump formed in her throat, she had to sit down on one of the kitchen chairs because she felt her legs giving up on her. She looked at Bette with all the worry in the world in her eyes.

Tina: what did you just said?

Bette: I’ve got cancer T. I found out today I have stage four ovarian cancer.

Tina: No!

Bette: believe me I didn’t want to accept it either.

Tina: how can that be Bette? (Knowing in her head that that was a stupid question to ask)

Bette: I haven’t been feeling good these past few weeks and last week I decided to go to Dr. Robbins to have a complete check up. She called me back because something wasn’t right and she did more blood tests and a complete body scan. Today she called me to her office once again and after asking Shane to keep an eye on Angie because I didn’t want to take her with me I went to her office and she told me that after consulting with some of her colleagues and exhausting any other possibility she was certain I had full blown stage four ovarian cancer. After seeing… my blank reaction I guess… she told me to go tomorrow to her office to form a plan of action and to discuss treatment and other things that… to tell you the truth I really don’t remember.

Tina: (taking a deep breath and absorbing all Bette had said) then you came home?!

Bette: I was acting in like auto pilot I guess. I went to The Planet and picked Angie and me food then came here and gave it to her and as I was walking to my room to change she called me and said I love you Momma… (Starting to cry again) I just lost it T. I started crying and screaming and tossing things and drinking and I could hear her knocking and calling me but I couldn’t face her T. I’m sorry she had to call you but I… I just can’t face her when I know I’ll be leaving her soon. I won’t see her grow up and become a woman and fall in love and do all the beautiful things she will go through. Every time I thought of something else I cried harder, then I saw myself in the mirror and I hated myself because I’m going to make every single person I love and care about hurt because I’m sick and that’s when I punched myself in the mirror. (Crying) Pretty stupid right.