My beloved Olivia,
If, it ever came down between life apart from you and death?
I’d surely choose death. At least with death I know that we’d be reunited again one day and it’d be forever, and no one and nothing would be able to ever separate us again. If, I had witnessed a mob hit and my life was put into jeopardy; and I had to "disappear" with no contact of any kind with you, my beloved, I’d surely die a thousand deaths throughout the years/decades until eventually this life had truly come to a complete and utter end. Life that would be empty, cold, and lonely is no way to live. No longer able to fall asleep in your arms every night; to know I’ll awaken the next morning the exact same way. No longer able to feel your gentle caress upon my face, no longer able to look into your eyes, no longer able to make love with you. That is surely death. I’d live, safe as can be, but I would no longer be alive. Not knowing how long our enforced separation will last, no hope of it ever really ending, and worse of all to force you endure all of that with me. Yet at the same time without me. Is surely death. However, if it ensured your happiness? I’d gladly take a bullet, give my life, and for you to know I’ll be waiting for you in Heaven. Is surely better than a cold, lonely, and long life apart. In the end, death is inevitable; yet it can not destroy us nor our love, but to ask you live a whole life in the desperate hope that one day I shall be allowed to return to you and that you will be safe all the days of your life. I could never ask that of you. All I ever want for you is your happiness and a life filled with love. And, if I am unable to give it to you with time and space separating us indefinitely then by all means promise me that if love shall ever present itself to you, that you surely won’t dismiss it. Let me go and please be happy in your new love. I love you, always. That can never die, it can never be destroyed, and it will live forever; this I can promise you and know that it will always be a promise that I made that could never be broken. Never!

Always, Alex

To be continued………..