(Re)Finding our own path

Chapter 5 September, 16 2013

Bette and Jodi were in the car, heading to the Planet. There was one of those ‘special nights’ and Shane and Alice wanted the two of them to join the gang. They invited Tina as well and, since what happened earlier that evening, the thought of seeing her again made her nervous. Jodi noticed it.

«Honey, what’s up? »

«Uh? » Bette’s trance was interrupted, «Nothing, um, nothing» she smiled.

There was another moment of silence, until Jodi spoke again.

«Is Tina going to the Planet? »

The question almost made her lose control of the vehicle, ‘Dammit!’ Bette thought, ‘The only pronunciation of her name makes me lose control’ «Yes, yes she’s going».

As they made their way into the club, trying to push their way through the crowd, Bette spotted the gang. And Tina was already there. She could feel the blood flowing from her head to her feet. She didn’t know what it was – it was a new feeling, she couldn’t define it yet. She thought given, what happened earlier, she found a kind of closure, but maybe, things between them were a little too deep. Well, you can’t, as long as you want to – you can’t erase almost eight years of love. But then, all the fears and hurt made their way to the surface and Bette couldn’t avoid them. Right at that moment, being there with Jodi was the right thing to do, according to her brain. Despite it wasn’t the right thing when it came to her heart. But still, both of them hurt each other badly, and maybe there weren’t any chances for them to make it work. So the logical conclusion was to make the easiest choice. Being with Jodi and avoid the strong entanglement she had with Tina.

The blonde saw them and she couldn’t help but let out a sigh. She hoped none of her friends noticed it, but she was wrong. «What, T? » Alice asked.

«Nothing, um, I need to use the restroom. I’ll be right back» she quickly left the table.

«What the fuck is wrong with that woman? She kept rushing away! » the younger blonde uttered, turning to Shane.