Love you Cat

Frankie

Sam felt tears in her eyes again but held them back.

“Sam I realised that night in the Bar that I was still in love with you, I had hurt you so much and I had made the biggest mistake of my life.  I loved Frankie but I was not in love with her anymore, she is right we were in love with our memories and we could never make those a reality again.  I love you more than any one I have ever known Sam and I have missed you so much, I hope one day we can be friends, I ruined a beautiful relationship and now we are both alone and unhappy because of Frankie coming back into my life and me not being able to see that it was the past and only memories I have hurt the only woman I think I really and truly loved.” Cat got up to leave,

“Bye Sam, I’d better go and I’m so sorry  for hurting you.”

“Cat,” Sam took her hand, “don’t go,” Sam’s voice was a whisper, “I love you more than you will ever know, if we take it slowly we could get back what we had, it will have to be slow Cat because you took my whole being away and I don’t want it to happen again.”

Cat looked into Sam’s eyes and saw for the first time the pain she had caused, the tough cop cover she carried had hidden it from her at the beginning when she had told her she was going to go with Frankie.  She saw the love there too real love she hadn’t seen it because of her own blindness to it and her obsession with Frankie.  Cat knelt down and held Sam in her arms, Sam’s body shook as the tears fell Cat could not hold back her own tears and they sobbed together for what seemed like ages letting out all the pent up hurt and feelings. Sam pulled back then leaned in kissing Cat softly on the lips a long but gentle kiss.  She pulled away again, “slowly Cat,” she rested her forehead against Cat’s.  Cat got up and sat next to Sam on the couch and Sam enveloped her in her arms.  They stayed that way for two hours talking and deciding that they were going to do the dating and outings again, to take things back to the beginning and try to put the past behind them.   The taxi arrived and Cat kissed Sam goodbye.

Tess was sitting at the kitchen table eating a bowl of cereal when Cat arrived home. “Hi Cat, Where’s Frankie?”

“She’s gone Tess.”

“Gone?” Tess looked startled.

“She left me a letter.”

Tess jumped up and flung her arms around Cat nearly knocking her off her feet, “oh Cat, not again.”

“It’s ok Tess, we both knew it wasn’t working only she was the one brave enough to do something about it, she knew I was still in love with Sam.  Frankie has gone to LA and her Mum has gone with her for a time to try to get to know one another better.  I went to see Sam and we are going to try to make it work.  Sam said she loves me still but we have to take it slowly.  I thought that I was still in love with Frankie but we were in love with the memories we had.  We both realised we couldn’t get back what we had it had gone too long and I really had got over her before she came back it was seeing her that brought back all of the feelings.”  Tess sat back down and began crunching on her cereal again.

“Are you sure you’re ok?”

“Yes Tess, I am happy to be trying to sort out things with Sam I love her Tess and I was a fool to hurt her so much she is worth so much more than I gave her and I don’t want ever to hurt her again.”  Tess just smiled.

“I’m for bed, see you later Tess”, Cat made for her room just as her text alert sounded.  “Night my darling, I love you, Sam x”  Cat sat on her bed and text back “I love you too, Cat xx”