“Haha don’t party TOO hard” she said referring to
the time I had gotten drunk.

“Ya ya ya, I know, this is my street see ya tomorrow!”

“Bye!” she said hugging me and kept walking down
the street toward her own house.

I sighed. If only we could be more than friends…

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I opened the front door of my house, and was greeted by my
mom’s happy face.

“How was your first day of school hun?!” she said
happily.

“Fine” I said frustrated and walked upstairs to my
room.

Why I had been so mean to my mom? I don’t know. I hopped up
onto my bed and stared at the ceiling. Thinking of different ways of telling
Julia how I felt of her. I ended up thinking of us laying on the beach kissing.

“Allison! Dinners ready!” my mom yelled from
downstairs.

“Ughhh” I groaned, getting up from my bed and
walking downstairs toward the dinner table.

I was the last one there too. Even my older brother had
beaten me who had football practice earlier.
My dad was there too. I looked down at the table to see what we were
eating. Chicken, ugh. I’m not the biggest fan of chicken.

“Hey Allison, how was school?” asked my dad.

“Fine, I guess” I said while dishing up my food,
obviously not wanting to talk.

“Come on talk to me a little would you? Geez be a
little happy would you?” he said irritated.

Sighing I ate  my food
quickly and ran upstairs. Finally the best part of my day, taking a shower!
First I loved taking showers because it always gave me time to think, for some
reason I always thought better in the shower.

“If I die young, burry me in satin lay me down, on a,
bed of roses. Sink me in a river at dawn…” I sang. While thinking about
different ways to tell Julia how I felt about her. “Wait I know! I’ll tell
her at Amanda’s party!” I smiled. Then frowned, what am I going to SAY?
Well I had all week long to figure that out.

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The first week of school had been very fast and nothing
important happened except some talking between me and Julia about my sexuality.
But tonight is Amanda’s party so it was time to have some fun. I had invited
Rachel and Alyssa over to my house to get ready together. They came over and we
got on our clothes we had picked out for the party. We also put on our make-up.
I made sure to wear a lacy shirt, it made me look a bit sluttish but who cares,
the prettier I looked the better chance I had with Julia. At least that’s what
I thought. I brought a sweatshirt just in case it got old too. Alyssa and
Rachel told me not to bring it, because no one would be wearing one, but I
ignored them as usual. They were both wearing shirts from forever 21 that they
had picked out the day earlier when we had all went to the mall. We had my mom
drive us to the party; yes I know it was embarrassing.