I feel about two inches tall, because here I am, being hated for this yet again. It is high school all over again. I’m a sohpomore in college, this isnt suppose to happen anymore.

"Anyway," Karen looks away from me, still disgusted, "It kinda did look like Aiden was taking it too far," she explains. I figure shes not too bad, but boy, is she ever lucky that I’m not violent anymore. Boy, is she ever lucky that I’ve learned to suck in certain feelings.

"I can’t believe this…I can’t believe this is happening…again!" I watch as Spencer falls to the sidewalk, with her knees bending and her head collapsing in her arms. She must really dig this asshole Aiden. I almost feel bad for her, but honestly can you  really feel bad for someone who talks to you like that?

Her idiot friend rushes to her side, as if shes dying or something. Her hand quickly wraps around Spener’s shoulders and is pulling her close and telling her its going to be okay. I try my best to not laugh, as this is completely insane. First, I cannot truely believe that my Spencer is satisfied being with a man, so its hard to believe that she has any real feelings for this guy. Second, if that Karen thinks this is bad, she should have seen me when Spencer left. That my friends, was the image of someone in love when they were honestly in pain.

I also cant believe that I havent seen or spoked to my love in years, and instead of talking to her this moment, she is crying over some rapist.

"Is that all you have to say!" I shout this, and I shout it after being silent for a few moments, so its not surprise when they both jump.

"Why don’t you leave us alone?" Karen questions.

I ignore her, and drop to my knees so that I am face to face with my first and only love. It’s not long before my hands are gripped tightly around her face, forcing her to look at me. And its surreal, because even after these years, she still has that look in her eyes. It’s like they tell you everything you need to know. When I gaze into them, I see her. Not the girl that refers to me as a dyke, not the girl whos dressing slutty and sleeping with stupid boys.