"Marina Ferrer." "Here hello, is Tina." "Oh my God." "Jenny is not angry please, but she has mentioned unintentional of Bettes names as them to me from your phone call told. She is sorry very much, particularly as she had promised to you to say to me nothing. Well, however, now I know it." "Is sorry me, but I am confused just a little." "I can understand This, but I imagined, it would maybe be no so bad idea to call sometimes you to get to know a little more." "Maybe you should rather talk with Bette?" "Yes, there you are maybe right. Unfortunately, I need in addition, however, her telephone number or address. Would you give them to me?" "Oh one, I does not know whether was Bette thus a right, on the other hand, …?" "Yes?" "Now, I know that she would also like to get in touch to you that she has not found, however, yet properly the courage to it. Maybe it is not so silly at all, even if you had the possibility to call them if you want it. I mean, nevertheless, this would be only fair, or?" "It would be this. Has asked to Bette you then to give me no number or address?" "Well, not directly. For days so I try to reach them because I wanted to say to her, actually, that I have spoken with Jenny and that I have erroneous squealed myself there too. But I have not reached them yet. So much I know, she has vacation and maybe it has gone somewhere there." "OK, so, you have a slip of paper and a pencil?" "Yes, moment … OK, I am so far." Marina gave me your address and your telephone number which I taken down in a hurry. Step by step I got closer to you. I was excited in such a way, almost as if I had blind date before myself with a woman whom I knew already damn well, but had never seen. "How does it go for you, Marina?" "I am doing well. I accept, Jenny has told a little about me?" "Yes, she has. I would still be glad if we called up sometimes again and also see again." "Is not angry at me, but I think, we both need first a little time for ourselves, speak so, you for Bette and I for Jenny." "Yes, this is true." "But if we have agreed somewhat on the row, if I visited to you everything with pleasure sometimes in L.A. I think, there would be there still something to explain. This I am simply guilty to you, and I also know this." "Is already OK, Marina. We have understood everything, why you have moved back so much." "Well, I find only, it was not fair from me, not fairly to You, towards my friends and how I know the scene, is there one mixes rumors to rectify or?" Marina laughed. "You know that we have never given a lot on rumors, but yes, there was an amount of it, especially after you were away and your man had appeared here." "I will explain everything to you, promised … if the time for it has come, okay?" "Okay."

Long I played about with the slip of paper on which your number stood. Like a tiger in his cage I ran worriedly by our house. I tried to deal, wash away, beds cover, hover, clear up, read, music in, music from, a little sleep in the pool, weed pull, the flowers cut … nothing of everything functioned one really.

And suddenly it shot to me in the head. I had decided.