I can’t believe that it’s senior year. Wow, it feels so empty. I guess this is going to be a sad year. I mean, Glen’s going to Iraq soon, Chelsea’s going to be moving soon, Kyla went back to Baltimore because her mom wanted her home, Clay… anyways. It’s so boring now. Aiden died at prom. I took it badly. He was just the best friend, but there was more for him. He wanted more and in the process of saying so, it broke us up. I didn’t even think he was capable of breaking us up. And why wait ‘til prom?

Honestly, I don’t know if we’re broken up for sure. She and I still haven’t talked. After Aiden’s name was called out, she didn’t want to see me. God I miss her so much. I miss her eyes, her smile, her hair, her voice, her body, her lips… god my heart hurts so much.

“Hey slut. Looks like it’s just us this year huh?” “Yeah Madison, I guess so.” “Hey look, I’m sorry for everything I put you and everyone else through. I guess I was just jealous.” “Uh… ok? Can we put it behind us now? I don’t want to be friendless again this year.” “Ok sure! Wait, what about-.” “We haven’t talked. She won’t talk to me, so I stopped trying. Why? Have you talked to her?” “Uh, a bit yeah. She’s so miserable. I’ve never seen her this pale before. After she got shot and was released from the hospital, I think she had to go back at least two more times. She’s hurting really badly. She’s not the same anymore.”

Well that hurts me even more. Damn! And I thought things couldn’t get worse. “Well chica, I’m going to go now. See you later!” “Bye Madison.” Well, what’s first? Oh joy! English. I can’t believe it’s my senior year… wow, this year sucks already. SHIT! She’s in my class!!!! Oh my God! No… just breathe…

“Hey Ashley”.