Passion rules us all. And we obey.
What other choice do we have?
Passion is the source of our finest moments.
The joy of love… the clarity of hatred… and the ecstasy of grief.

Passion – Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Present;

We cried ourselves to sleep.

‘NO! Don’t touch me! Get away, HELP!!’ he doesn’t. I feel him thrusting into me again and again he has no face but I can smell him. His perfume mixed with sweat…

"NO… No please stop, please" I say loudly "Shhhh, baby you have to wake up now, it’s over you are not there, you are here with me. Wake up baby" ‘this voice I know this voice. Ashley? Ashley is here? No! She can’t see me like this no!’ "No go away!" I scream. "Spencer, baby, come back to me. I love you so much wake up for me…" I felt a hand on my shoulder and I jerked awake. "It’s o.k. it’s o.k…" she said "you were dreaming…" I’m so confused but slowly I know I’m safe. The second I look into her eyes I start to cry again. She hugs me so tight. I need her to bond me back to reality "I’m so sorry Spenc, so very sorry…" She cries too until we drift back to sleep.

I wake up in her arms she is so beautiful god I love her so much. I gently kiss her closed eyelid and she slowly wakes.

"Mmmmm" she murmurs. "That’s a great way to wake up" I laugh "I agree."

"Are you o.k." she asks, suddenly dead serious.

"Yea, are you?" I reply

"aam" she sighs as she gets up to a sitting position, and I follow.

"Last night was rough" she says with a raspy voice "I know" (wink;)

"You still haven’t told me what happened to you two nights ago…" she asks for what I’m afraid to give.

"I don’t want to talk about it" I say as I get out of bed. "Spence" she stops me from leaving the room.

"No Ash I said no" I don’t turn back I can’t look at her. I can’t see the disappointments on her face. Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder. I jump a bit but relax when I realize it’s my love.