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A Long Walk – 4, pt. II
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"Thank you."
"Yeah, and it also occurred to me that a part of what you must’ve been feeling was a sense of detachment from your partner." Tina glanced at her. "I’m not making excuses for what I did with Henry, but I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you more. During Provocations, after Angelica’s birth. I’m sorry."
"We both made mistakes."
"Maybe. But in the same way, I guess I’m sorry I never trusted you enough to talk to you when I was suffering post-partum."
Bette smiled grimly, remembering how her feelings for Tina, previously hatred and loathing and complete disappointment, turned into sympathy and hurt when Helena had slipped and had told Alice that the blonde was suffering depression. It had been after the Henry disaster, and although it had been one reason why Bette had stopped giving Tina a hard time, she had never personally taken any steps to get Tina to talk to her about it.
Tina glanced at Bette. "Bette, I know if I’d told you myself things could’ve been different. But I didn’t tell you. And up until just before I moved to New York, I never really dealt with it myself."
"Jesus, T, when you want to you can really read my mind." Bette joked.
"I’m sorry I hadn’t done a good job of that, either." Tina smiled apologetically.
"And I also feel sorry about giving you a hard time about being with men," Bette offered. "I didn’t question it when you decided to be with me, I shouldn’t have questioned why you wanted to be with them."
"When did we become adults?" Tina joked.
Bette smiled back. "Anyway, you were talking about your complete inability to keep your partners happy."
"Hahaha," Tina mocked. "I hate you, too."
Bette laughed, nudging her. "Tell me."
Tina racked her brain, trying to remember her mental bookmark. "So I dumped Mister Family Man, Mister Perfect Guy, and now Helena dumps me because, according to her, she’s just not the person I’m looking for."
Bette lifted an eyebrow.
"Apparently she thinks I expect her to be someone she’s not." Tina told her. "So I keep thinking, is it me? Am I that incapable of maintaining a relationship? And when I think about it, if I’m going to be honest with myself, I feel better, happier, when I’m just at home, with Angelica. Sex isn’t something that I crave so much anymore, it’s nice to have, and everything, but when I don’t have it I’m not going crazy."
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… how can you stop here… Please update again soon, although I hate the fact that after so many year, Tina is still holding all the cards.
are you trying to kill us with all this tension? please continue and soon.x.x.
wow, this is getting intense now, no more easy talking…i hope tina appreciates bette’s opening her heart to her…thank for the wonderful dialog again
i’m: with missyang and lara weave-that a cliff hanger please post soon.
Aw, come on you did not just leave us there. Do I not have enough stress in my life.
If this walk is any longer Bette’s gonna have to carry her shoes. =p
yeah umm what happens when the walk has to come to an end?
Great story. Sure hope you post again soon.
Evil, very evil!
Bette’s candor is very touching and her longing for T is palpable. OK, I’m gonna say it: I hope you get them together in this story. With that done, I’ll just sit back and read now. Thank you!
brilliant! such an intense chapter. but the question really is, if Tina had picked bette after her return to women, would bette pick her?
one cliffhanger i can deal with …followin up with a better cliffhanger is a low blow tht hurts man i mean cummon u know you have us hooked on to your story probably wrapped around your lil pinky finger but this is way too much :) am jus kidding it was a pleasure reading it but pls post soon or imight get few grey hair in mornin from jus worryin are they gonna get back together or jus polite fuckyou too each other and remain friends
So good and devilish of you to stop where you did and leave us hanging…
I wonder what is going through Tina’s head as Bette has laid her heart out to her. From the beginning one gets the feeling that Tina knows that the one person that made her feel whole was Bette. In all of her relationships the one thing that she was missing was what Bette could give her. It sounds like Tina compared all of her lovers to Bette as well as Bette compared all of hers to Tina. Hopefully now they can once again examine all those feelings. I hope that you will post soon. I need my tiff_duke fix.
Wow, after that confession, I guess I am surprised that Tina is walking away, I love how honest Bette was and she is right, going to Helena is a slap in the face. PS, I never felt it necessary for authors to respond individually to comments. I can’t even imagine how long that would take you! I would far prefer you to spend the time writing the next chapter!
Why must they have to stop themselves from touching each other – I love the flow – it’s perfect – even with it’s teasing cliffhangers or maybe because of them.
For the love of all that is good in the world, please post soon! You know your a good writer when you can make your readers shamelessly beg for more.
awww the torture tiffy!!
It’s kind of amazing to see Bette so completely open emotionally without getting carried away emotionally. Tina is a bit more evasive, at least initially, but she too is getting to the heart of things so to speak. Shocking, but I’m buying it.
Wow…whada. You have thrown us a boom and you just leave us hanging there, Evil! “You picked Helena Peabody, and not me.” I feel really bad for Bette, all these years she still hasn’t moved on. Life is short, make it sweet! please ;)
Heartbreaking, and I hope Tina heard and understood everything that Bette was telling her. As techgal has referenced a song, The Answer Is You, that is what they should be telling each other. Because they are each other’s answer or LOVE as it were. I know Tina must be crying as she is walking away. Please post soon.
Damn this is so good!!!!
Suicide watch! Suicide watch! Not for B&T – for the readers! Really, this is very good. Heartwrenching, but good! Thanks!
If you can, check out ‘The Answer is You’ by Phyllis Hyman. It was playing in my mind as I read this.
please don’t leave us hanging!
Thank you!
Shucks, another great chapter…but another cliffhanger…
ohhhhhhhhhhhh. Has T heard her? That was a heartbreaking sentence, and so true… Now what…*jumps up and down in anticipation*
You are killing me here. Please Post Soon
Don’t apologise for cliff hangers – you know we love the drama really (lesbians without drama – thats just not right!) But please post the next bit soon!!!! I’m taking my laptop on holiday to remote dial up hell just to keep up with this!
Well I hope that Tina had her bat ears on and she heard what Bette was saying to her…and why did you stop? Looking forward to reading more. Thank you.
Tina knows now that Bette still loves her deeply and always will. Tina knows that she loves Bette but would it work the third time around. Its up to you.its your story.Please post soon thanks
intense.
Wow… I feel strongly for Bette, but I can’t make a decision on Tina yet; I feel like she still needs to come back with her heart-wrenching admissions of love, or something. I hope it all works out.
oh oh! this talk every time is deeper and deeper and deeper!
Hey TD, Okay about the personal comments so will PM you if I want so feedback. As for this part; it certainly didn’t shy away from the hard and intense questions. It was amazing to hear your dialogue as the scene played out in my head. Tina and Bette laughing about their past together and their failures in the relationship stakes. WOnderful to have them talking so freely. If only this walk down memory lane re-ignites the embers of their partnership. Please continue soon. Thank you for these wondrous words. Your Loyal Fan.
Yu’ve done it, i’ve got tears in my eyes.