Chapter 11

When Alice had left the planet, she drove straight to her apartment, all she could think about was the letter from Dana burning a hole in her pocket. In a way she was really happy, that she still had something left of her beloved Dana, a letter filled with her last thoughts, Would they just be words, she has left for her best friend? Similar words that she has left everyone else. Or will they be special and help me get through this pain that has been solidly placed in my heart, And if I read it will that be my last connection to her? As Alice kept running these thoughts through her head, She pulled the letter out of her pocket. She went and sat down on the couch, and with shaking hands opened the letter.

My Darling Alice,

I know that the end is near, and I cannot leave this earth without telling you, how much you mean to me. I loved you from the first minute I met you. You were so much fun to be with, you always kept me laughing, we did so many crazy things together, including you taking me to clubs and teaching me how to be, not so gay. You taught me how to talk to women, and read the signs on which were gay and which were not. You helped me meet my first real lover, and you were at my side, when I came out to my family, and when I lost my beloved Mr. Piddles. You were always there Alice, And when I realized I didn’t just love you, I was in love with you, We had a whirlwind romance, I left you because I couldn’t handle your insecurities of me leaving you all the time, even though I tried to reassure you each day, I took the easy way out, and I just left, I was with Lara, but I never ever stopped loving you, I just didn’t know how to get us back. So I just let the days go by, When I found out I had cancer, I was mad at the world, I pushed Lara away, sent her to Paris with my stubbornness, but when you came and wouldn’t let me send you away, I was happy, I had you back, But I knew you were dating, so I left it with us being best friends again, Thank you for staying with me, thank you for always loving me, I can tell you now Alice, I love you and I will take that love with me to heaven. Yes Alice I believe in God, I can actually see a hint of a smile on your face, probably had a wisecrack for that one. Think of me with love and my wish for you is that you find someone to love you the way you deserve to be loved. Don’t think of me with tears of sadness, think of me with tears of joy. I will miss you my beautiful loving friend.

Dana

Alice placed the letter on the table, and laid her head back on the couch and let the tears run freely, Dana deserved tears, she was so young, it wasn’t fair, and it was so fast she wasn’t prepared to lose her. As these thoughts entered her mind, she knew in her heart, she would have never been ready to lose her.