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    Ashes, ashes… Chapter 19

    Story written on January 2, 2006 by fanficchick.
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    “Then we may not lose you to the land of caffeine and constant rain after all?” Alice asked, arching her eyebrows. 

     

    Bette shrugged.  “Like I said.  Everything’s back on the table.”

     

    “So.  When are you getting in touch with Tina?”

     

    “As soon as you give me her phone number,” Bette said.

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    “Mummy!  Look at this!”  Wilson called, displaying his prowess with his lacrosse equipment.

     

    “You’re completely brilliant!” Helena replied, smiling and waving at her son.

     

    She tried to totally focus on Wilson, but found her gaze and her attention wandering to the other side of the playing field where Tina and Jun Ying were sitting in the grass, making glass bead bracelets.  Tina had been reluctant to join this family outing, hedging up until the last minute, and Helena was wondering whether she’d pushed too hard.  On the one hand, Helena was convinced that spending time with her lively, loving children would be healing for Tina.  But now, seeing Tina’s blonde head bent close to her daughter’s dark one, Helena worried that it might have been too soon for Tina to be with the children.

     

    “Throw me another one Mummy!” Wilson begged, and Helena put her concerns aside for the moment.

     

    That evening, the four of them ordered a pizza and played board games until it was time for the children to go to bed.  They presented themselves, freshly scrubbed and in their pajamas, promptly at 8:45.

     

    “Come on.  Let’s have our snuggling and a story,” Helena said, rising from the table.

     

    “Will you tuck me in?” Jun Ying asked, standing in front of Tina and tugging on her hand.

     

    “Of course,” Tina said, kissing the top of the little girl’s head and allowing herself to be ushered into the evening rituals.

     

    Helena read a chapter from Charlotte‘s Web then answered half a dozen questions about spiders, and how they make webs, and what they eat.  Finally, she kissed her daughter goodnight and walked her son down the hallway.  Once she eased Wilson‘s door shut a few minutes later, Helena crept stealthily to her daughter’s bedroom.  Her heart tightened with love as she stood in the doorway and watched Tina scoop Jun Ying into her bed, and bend low to whisper reassuring words before silently leaving the room.  

     

    “How are you, Darling?” Helena asked, once the two of them sat, side by side, on the living room couch.

     

    “I’m… um.  I’m okay,” Tina said, clearly fighting a losing battle against an onslaught of tears.

     

    “I’m so sorry that I pushed this agenda.  I thought seeing the children would be a good idea,” Helena apologized, taking Tina’s hand.

     

    “It was good.  It’s just hard.  That’s all.  I love being with them.  But it…  It reminds me of what I’ve lost.  What I’ll never have.”

     

    Helena reached for her, drawing her into an embrace.  “I wish I’d seen you with her.  I’m sure you were extraordinary,” she whispered.  “But you know.  Any child who has you in her life, no matter your role, will be better for it.”

     

    “Thank you,” Tina sniffled, burying her face in Helena‘s shoulder.

     

    They rested in each others’ arms for a long time, neither of them speaking.  Finally, a little after midnight, Tina sighed and shifted.  “I should go,” she said.  “You need to get some rest if you’re taking them hiking tomorrow.”

     

    “You’re welcome to join us, you know.  They’d love to see you again.  And I always love seeing you,” Helena said, gently brushing back the hair from Tina’s face.

     

    “How about if you call tomorrow night and tell me all about it?”

     

    “I could conference you in for the next chapter of Charlotte and Wilbur,” Helena offered.

     

    “Perfect,” Tina smiled, making a move to get up.

     

    “Tina,” Helena said suddenly.

     

    “Hmm?”

     

    “I…  There’s something…”

     

    “What?”

     

    Helena looked into the brown eyes that looked up at her, full of trust, full of affection.  “Never mind.”

     

    “Are you sure?” Tina asked skeptically.

     

    “Yes.  It’s late.  We’ll talk more tomorrow.”

     

    They walked together to the front door, and Helena took Tina in her arms for a tender, lingering hug.  “Good night, Darling.  Sweet dreams,” she said, standing on the porch long after Tina’s car disappeared into the darkness.

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    Comments

    1. If Ilene C called me (like that would happen) and asked me, “of all the hundreds of authors on this site, who do you think I should hire to write for the show?” I would be standing up and screaming at the top of my lungs, “FANFICCHICK, FANFICCHICK, FANFICCHICK!!!!!!!”

    2. FFC…I don’t how you do it, chapter after chapter is brilliant. The dialogue is spot on. Alice is really funny in a clever and cheeky way but sweet as well. You write and I’ll read.

    3. Yes, completely I second Seahurst! You and IC need to get together for a conference like now…… And As always another excellent post. You are indeed one spectacular writer tackling one very difficult topic. Bravo!!!

    4. helena can’t tell tina because it might ruin everything, especially now, when bette might call…oh, please let B&T talk nice and work things out..i’m dying in here for them to be together…love this story, so poignant, tender and sad

    6. whoops, that last one got away from me. What I meant to say was that I’d rather see Tina with Helena than Bette. It must be your masterful writing!

    7. I agree with Natalia13, I hope Tina and Helena wind up together, but I am glad that Bette is working through her issues and they will hopefully come to a resolution.

    14. Very well done. Even, balanced attention and approach to all sides and parties to the story. Polished. Each chapter a discrete story of its own, yet integrated into the whole as well. …I’ll gladly contribute to a ticket to Vancouver for you.

    20. still reading girl. and your killing me in the most painful i can imagine. but your writing is something that i cant get enough of. left us hanging but ill be here for the next one. thanks.

    21. Gosh ffc this is so difficult to experience through your writing. I get this God awful feeling in the pit of my stomach and I can’t help but wonder what it is that makes me so sympathetic to a fictional character. Tina is so strong, much stronger than Bette, something that I have always admired in the character. And it’s an aspect of her you always manage to capture so well. Even when her heart has been broken. So keep going take this where ever you like, I will gladly follow. Thanks

    22. Is it sad that I actually went “Yes!” when I saw you had posted? *g*Oh my sweetheart Brit, will you have your heart broken once again? *cries* This is fantastic, I can’t wait to read Bette’s conversation with Tina.

    24. Another post! Cartwheels and Handstands! Again, it was beautiful.Alice’s “small words” line was a LOL. How you capture each character so perfectly is amazing. It’s life on the page.”Use small words”

    25. This story is one of the best on the site. I don’t know what you have in store for these characters but where ever you take them will be a joyful journey and the pleasure will be all mine to read about it. thanks so much for sharing!!!

    26. Excellent update – although I find Bette’s abandonment of Tina very difficult to understand and maybe a little too pat – I mean it’s a stretch for me to believe she didn’t know she was running away until she went to therapy?? and she didn’t know how deeply that would injure Tina. Hope you can explain this more.

    27. Excellent chapter..i was like yay Helena didnt say it..phew! but i think she will say it…when she sees that Bette is starting to approach Tina. Post soon.

    29. I know I sound like a broken record when I tell you how brilliant I think this story is. But it’s BRILLIANT! Thanks for all of the recent chapters–it’s like Christmas all over again!

    31. Helena knows she’s on the way out and Bette’s on the way in. Of course, you said it so much better. You have me balanced between equal measures of hope and dread. Thanks for another brilliant chapter.

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