“So…” He said and the now lost me. I looked up to him and he held up his hands; gesturing ‘what’s it going to be’; I know he wouldn’t accept no as an answer; but he just figuring out what the hell I’m thinking about.

“I… this is too much…” I said quietly; hoping he wouldn’t heart me. Hoping he wouldn’t think I’m a coward. He looked over at Sammy Luca; from that Uncle Sam already knew what he means. Uncle Sam left us alone and Jenny followed him; he went out the back to the backyard and joined the other guys. I saw him talking to one of the guards at the corner of my eyes and soon two of them left.

“It’s a heavy deal; I must admit… but I wouldn’t offer it to you if I knew you couldn’t do it…” He said. I thought about it and again he was right. Gabriel McCutcheon is never careless about the decisions he makes. “You know… I rarely do this….” He mentioned to me. “It’s not easy for me to leave New York….” He said again.

“Are you staying in LA…” I blurted out; I wasn’t sure with the answer I was hoping for.

“Oh no, no…” he said slowly. A guilty look on his face; I don’t blame him. He is what he is; a busy gangster. “A flight to Vancouver at 5.00pm… to see how Shay is going… and then the earliest out of there… back to New York…” He mentioned.

I nodded at him; his eyes were still wondering around the house. “I miss him…” I blurted out again; what in the world is wrong with me? Why am I mushy like this?

“I miss him too… I’ll send your love…” He said kindly. He put one hand in his pocket; I heard the noise of keys mixing around. He stopped and looked at me again; and I know right then he was about to leave me. He knows that I will do it; he knows that I can never deny him; my father. Please, never mistake that calm and cool exterior appearance of his for he is a dark and ruthless man.

I took my time when I continued my self. “I can’t say no to you…” I said. “I just… I don’t know if I can live up to your expectations…” Which is fucking huge. But I can dream right? To be as big as he is; his name is globally known in the underworld and that is a fucking huge deal.