I touched my lips and the feeling was still there. I could still feel and taste her lips on mine. This was kind of pissing me off actually. I can’t get her face out of my goddamn mind. I grabbed the bullet out and gave it another long sniff. I should really stop… maybe this one last time. Maybe.

I grabbed all my guns from the small cupboard. I started load each one of them. I had nothing else to do. The drug was hitting me already and I was in a trance. After I’ve loaded my guns, I took my daggers out and cleaned them. I couldn’t really do it properly and felt a quick slice on the side of my finger. It didn’t hurt at first, then the blood starts to roll down. I took off my suit and now leaving me with my black suit pants and a white wife beater. The red was mesmerizing and I stood there and looked at it. I don’t know why and I can’t remember for how long but it was making me dizzy. I wiped it on my wife beater and it left a big dark red smudge on it. I could feel my self perspire and I could barely stood up. Soon I was a bit shaky and nervous. I looked at my self in the mirror and it wasn’t my normal shade. I was much paler and the blood has drained from my lips. My eyes were hollow and my pupils were big and I looked completely fucked. Jenny shouldn’t see me like this. I see the sweat on my forehead on wipe them off with my hand, my bad hand and I fuckin’ smudged blood all over my forehead. Now I look even more fucked. I stumbled my way out of my room and went barged into the shower.

“Shane!!!” I swung my head around to see who was calling my name and saw Carmen wrapped her body around with the white shower curtains. “Hey…” I slurred. I looked back at the mirror in front of me. I turned on the tap and sloshed some water to my face. I could hear Carmen was screaming at me to get out of the bathroom. I swung my head around again and she realizes all the blood on me. I looked at her again and she still looked sexy and seconds later I felt my body falling and all I could see was black. Yeah… my sniff went a bit too long. Don’t worry this happened to me a bunch of times.