T, I didnt do anything with Candace. I have to get her to believe me. No matter what Ive done I didnt mean to hurt her. She has to know we were ending it. I place my hands on her shoulders, bracing myself for an onslaught of questions. We were just talking. Its over. There is no more Candace.

I believe you Babe. She believes meno questions? But you have to understand that I was hurt. Thats why I went out to Milk, shes pouring her heart out to me. Shes telling me why she kissed that woman. I wish I could tell her why I went home with someone. I wish I could tell her.anything. Why cant I break down these walls? I wanted someone to hold meto love me the way you used to. Oh, T. I still love you. But I couldnt do it. She was kissing me and I couldnt stop thinking of you. Baby, nothing happenedI swear. She couldnt do it. Why cant I be as strong as she is? It wasnt her that needed my comfortingit was me who needed hers. I lie back on the bed and close my eyes. I roll over and pull my legs up into a fetal position, my back to my love. I cant let her see me cry. Baby, its okay. Im herewell work this out. Itll take some work, but Im not going anywhere. Not after I tell you what I did. She walks around the bed again and stands in front of me.

You dont understand, I explain. I dont deserve her. I went home with someone.

What are you talking about Babe? What do you mean you went home with someone?

When I walked outside last night, someone asked me how I was. I dont think she realized I was upsetshe was hitting on me T. And I kissed her, I see her face change as I speak the last few words. I have to finish. I went home with her. She sits on the bed. Is she actually staying? Please T, forgive me for what Ive done. I reach out and touch her shoulder. I have to let her know that Im willing to work at thisI want so much to fix things. Without a word, she stands up and walks out. She walks across the hall and into the bathroom, slamming the door shut as she enters. A few minutes later, she walks out of the bathroom and down the hall. She didnt even look in my direction when she walked out. I hear the front door close as my worldmy love walks out on my life.

To Be Continued