accepted and loved. That must sound so

stupid. Watching her sleep is like a

spectator sport, I must say. She takes

these deep breaths like shes about to move

or something and instead she just continues

on sleeping. Im on my laptop in bed right

now, which is why I have such a good view of

sleeping beauty. She has her arm sprawled

over my lap as if claiming her territory

its so endearing. Looking at her right now

making my stomach do flips. I dont know

how she does it, but just watching her makes

my entire being react. When she does her

mundane daily routine I fall in love with

her all over again. I love when my alarm

goes off to get up for work she rolls over

on top of me to beat the ***** out of my

alarm. I tell you, alarms worldwide should

fear the wrath of Tina! And then she so

gently snuggles into the crook of my neck

and drapes her arm over my chest. I find it

amazing how the beast that just attacked an

alarm clock could suddenly calm herself and

snuggle into my arms. I love kissing her

before I go off and hop into the shower and

how she mumbles some incoherent sleep babble

to me as she cuddles her head into my

pillow. And then, like clockwork everyday,

when I am dressed and ready to head out the

door shes in the kitchen waiting for me at

the table coffee and paper in hand looking

so sleepy. I love the way Tina looks when

shes sleepyshes so vulnerable and open,

so mine. I love being able to say that she

is MY wife that she chose ME out of every

other possibility. I guess thats a big

issue for me, the fact that, amongst

everything, else Tina represents

acceptance. She makes me feel so special

that I am the one she wants to be with when

my entire life I was always searching for

that. I cried for 2 days when Tina told me

she was changing her name to Tina Porter-

Kennard b/c she wanted everyone to know she

was married and was proud to be my wife.

She doesnt expect anything from me except

love and it took me nearly 7 years to figure

that out. Pathetic huh? Anyway, back on

topic. My favorite part of the day is when

Tina calls me to just say hi, or tell me

some ***** drama that Alice has created, or

tell me that she misses me. I have to say

that I even love it when Tina gets angry. I

hate being the cause of it, mind you, but

when shes angry and yelling her little

southern accent comes out and it is sooo

cute. I could melt right then and there.

She was born in North Carolina and went to

college there so she still has an accent.

Its adorable! Tina is an amazing womanshe

has gone through so much in her life and has

turned into this spectacular being. I adore

her and I pray daily that she knows that.

Well, its almost time to get ready for work

and Ive spent another sleepless night

talking about everything but me. Tinas

gonna kill me.