“Does he come in your mouth?”

What a question, Bette thought.  “If you take him deep enough, you barely taste it.  I just swallow it.”

Gail said in a voice above a whisper, “You swallow it.  Ewww, gross.  No, I couldn’t do it.”

“But you can do the other?”  Bette looked at her intently.

Lifting an eyebrow, Gail leaned in and said quietly, “Eat a woman out?  Oh, yeah, I can do that.  So, what’s it like to be on the receiving end.  Is he as good at diving as you are?”  She held a pencil like a baton between her fingers, gently tapping it on the table.

“I – I…well, I’m not in to that.”

“He doesn’t go down on you?”  Gail’s cup hit the saucer with a loud clink.  “Hasn’t he ever tried it?”

“I think he finds it repulsive.”

“You stick his ***** in your mouth; you swallow his jis.  You let him get away with that, Bette?”  Gail was outraged.

“I don’t mind.” 

“That’s cause you’ve never had it.”

“It’s just that I can tell Ash isn’t interested in that and I don’t know… like you said, maybe it’s gross…to him.”

“It’s not.”  Gail said quietly, while shaking her head gently.

“Anyway, it’s no big deal.”

“Does he satisfy you sexually?”

“I told you that already.”

Gail whispered, “Do you come?”

This was the most personal thing anyone had ever asked her.  Her head told her to keep her secrets safe, but she needed to talk about this.  She wanted to know why she wasn’t normal that way.  “Not with him.  Only alone.”  She was on the verge of tears.

Gail reached out and took her hand and the older woman felt Bette tense immediately.  She slid her hand away from Bette’s and said, “It’s okay.  That’s not unusual.  There are lots of reasons women aren’t able to achieve ***** with a partner.  Usually, the mind takes too much of a role in what’s going on, but there are lots of reasons.  I’ve got books on it if you’re interested.”

“No, I don’t want to read about it.”

Gail stared across at Bette thoughtfully.  “I suspect that you might have trust issues.  You don’t like giving up or losing control to anyone.  You like order and things to be compartmentalized in a particular way.”