“I….I…” is all I say. I can’t think the pressure of her body….the feel of her inside of me…. “You got it for her didn’t you….you wanted to feel pain so you wouldn’t think about her…….Shane I love the feel of your pussy…….” And the wave of pleasure that hits me makes me feel really bad…and good and bad….I scratch and the sheets pulling them down a little. She kisses the side of my face to make it better….I tell her to get off of me….and she seems confused.

I get out of bed and go to light a cigarette.

“Shane, what’s wrong?”

“You, me, this, you can’t talk about her when we do this, you can’t bring her up ever….I don’t want to talk about her, I don’t want to think about her…..it over she is gone…..you wanna be with me great….but don’t, do not bring up Carmen…..ever….am I making myself clear………?”

“Yeah…I’m….”

I don’t let her finish I walk out of the room and head to the bathroom.

CH 2

with her army complete
she can take me apart off
throught the earth
then back in the car
cause once you begin

you’re not going to stop
I know how you are
gonna stop
but you’re not going to stop
gonna stop
I know how you are
oh please

through the earth
then back in the car
you’re not going to stop
I know how you are

My new assignment was different. I had no partner. I had no one to answer to other than Chico. I completed my training, and I truly enjoyed the freedom that the D.E.A. offered. We worked off the books and financed our operations off the busts we made. It left me with the freedom to hunt down Havoc my way.

Of course there is a catch to everything.

I couldn’t see Shane till the assignment was finished. I couldn’t go any where near her. Turns out that Havoc really wanted Shane for some reason. Apparently he was moving his whole organization to Dade County. He wanted to get even with Shane that was my idea. Chico agreed but offered something more, Miami is a hotbed for drugs, and maybe Havoc was trying to get a new pipeline going while he was trying to get even with Shane?