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    Breathe– Chapter 19

    Story written on August 2, 2005 by Sox1.
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    Bette and Tina quiet eachother’s darkest fears

    As their eyes met, Bette felt her mouth go dry and her heart began to beat rapidly in response to the steely determination in Tina’s gaze. “I won’t, no I can’t, go home with you,” Tina said quietly as hot, bitter tears filled her eyes.

    Tina took a deep, fortifying breath and tried desperately to articulate feelings to Bette that had defied her own explanation her entire life. But, while she couldn’t fully describe the feelings and emotions that grew each time she returned to the State’s custody, she knew they defined who she was and how she reacted to everything and everyone around her.

    “You have every right to change your mind,” Tina said, biting her lower lip to try and hold back the sobs that always came when past memories of unfulfilled promises flooded her present thoughts. “But Bette, if that’s the case please let me go now. I can’t survive loving you and losing you.”

    The tears came more freely now, and as the raw emotion settled into Tina’s heart, she leaned forward and rested her head in her hands finally letting the pain of a life lived alone separate her from the woman who had been her salvation over the past two days.

    Bette began to panic as she watched Tina withdraw and immediately searched for a place to pull over. She needed to touch Tina, to look in her eyes, to hold her and convince her heart and soul that her love was for ever and that Tina could believe in the home Bette offered.

    She saw an exit to the Magnolia Bridge, and while softly rubbing Tina’s back trying to maintain any connection possible, she finally pulled over at a small park overlooking the Magnolia bluff.

    With a stunning view of downtown Seattle lighting the darkness around them, Bette slammed the car into park and made her way to Tina’s door as quickly as possible. Reaching in, she took the young woman in her arms and said, “T, come here.”

    Wrapping her arms tightly around Bette’s neck Tina finally cried for all the times she had felt so helplessly alone and abandoned. She cried for the times she had loved and lost. And, finally she cried for the times she had chosen not to love at all.

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    2. Oh my god!!!!! That was way beyond beautiful. The love and emotion wa so real, I could almost feel it flowing straight from the screen and right into my heart. Just when I think your chapters can’t get any better, they do!

      Thank you

    5. I was certainly in a state of withdrawal during your three day hiatus. I am glad all went well for you and your fundraising efforts. Nonetheless, I am glad to read your story once again. While you were gone I must have read and re-read the previous 18 chapters at least 10 times. Thanks again for the update. It is much appreciated. The beauty of their emotions is so well developed and the actual sexual interaction may need a bit more detail net time, but all and all it was great, as usual.

    7. wow . 3 days have never felt so long but sure worth the wait. Your writing is so smooth, so touching, it draws the readier into their world. Beautiful writing – pls keep themc coming. And, congratulations on your fundraiser – what a wonderful turn out. peace :)

    8. WOW… what an ending… at first i thought that bastard was watching them… i can’t believe he hit again so fast… not his MO… i have another feeling it’s a copycat… he studies his victims… this was too soon… or maybe i just watched to many “Law and Order” or “Cagney and Lacy” TV shows…

      Anyway … the sex… hmmmmmmmmmm… nice…real nice… love the out door effect and how they pleased each other at the same time… great job… love how they showed they do love each other…

      Now i know bette has to go back to playing a cop… and i know you will keep tina safe… and the dog… he will keep that bastard away from tina… and hopefully tina remembers the guy in the boat… love your story…please continue

    9. how could you keep me waiting for so long!? well it was totally worth the wait. you did an amazing job on your first NC-17 story. congrats on the fundraiser. and i hope you post the next chapter very soon cuz i cant wait for three days again. great chapter!!

    11. 3 days is too long…although, it sounds like your time was very well spent, congrats on raising so much money…wonderful job and wonderful writing….you posted just in time, I was about to have to track you down myself!

    12. Wow, way to go on the fundraiser! You are obviously very good at what you do, with your job and your writing. Fantastic job with both, congratulations!! This chapter was so real and beautiful, but also reminding the reader that Bette has an important job to do. Every action has a reaction and you’ve done an impeccable job showing that in your writing. I enjoy and look forward to this story every day..okay a few times a day (i’m offically addicted) and I can’t say it enough, this is amazing please don’t stop writing any time soon!

    13. sox – im so glad your event went so well. your an amazing woman.

      im floating. im so happy that you posted. i knew youl needed some rest. what a beautiful chappy. i really appreciate intelligent dialogue. not people flipping all over the place. now bette is gonna get her kojak on and save the world. cant wait for another one. thanks

    17. Before she became completely lost in Bette she was able to barely whisper , “Oh God baby, I have been ready for you my entire life.”

      Oh my God…I felt that all the way down to my toes! Bye the way…that little park in Magnolia is one of my favorite places to take people who are visiting Seattle. It is without a doubt, the best lookout over downtown Seattle there is. Thanks for reminding me of how beautiful that is.

    19. Wow, that was great, but a eerie connection between Bette and Tina, and the poor young lady that just lost her life. Ms. Porter, needs to get her hind in gear, so that she can keep her woman safe.

    20. sox – I love your story, I love your take on Bette and Tina love from their first encounter and then how their different losses create the fearing they feel in that love . I liked your going for the NC17 chapter and found much of it very moving however I just didn’t buy these two characters who have just gone through such a trauma and then a day of piecing that story together deciding to have sex for the first time in a public place. I hate sounding critical because I think you have created a super awesome story and this chapter had such wonderful writing but I felt that aspect was the first note that didn’t seem right to me.
      I appreciate your writing very much and look for your posts every day. I agree with whoever it was who said you are the supreme multitasker. And one incredible writer as well.

    22. Fantastic job on both your fundrasing and your update. You don’t have to worry about getting to descriptive with the NC-17 we could all feel it and thats all you need. I do agree with the others, its time for Bette to get back to business and kick some butt. Looking soooooooooo forward to your next update.

    23. It seemed like forever glad your back…Hope your fundraiser went well…Our GIRLS ARE IN FOR SOME TROUBLE…..PLEASE POST WHEN YOU CAN…..THANKS…..

    24. Gorgeous, you wrote this chapter so beautifully, I was blown away, so emotive I feel this story grows, strenghtens and becomes more awe inspiring with every fathomless word you write. Thank you so much for this, and oh heavens take care of our ladies…

    25. So glad that you’re back. Nice to hear that your fundraiser went so well.

      OK, you just about killed me with that last paragraph. My eyes were welling up…you just can’t to that to my sinuses! Bittersweet, that was.

      The huge void that was left in each of their hearts because of love. One having it and the other one not, was skillfully represented. So much more to discover about how wonderful it can be for them. They will have to give themselves over to trust before they are completely on the same page.

      Interesting that you chose to have them finally make love in such a public setting. Metaphorically exposing themselves, making themselves vulnerable. I loved that choice, by the way. As for not being an over the top ‘porno puppy’ (LMAO), that too was a good choice. Their union and it’s description really was all about ‘less is more’. Well done!

      I am always delighted to read one of your chapters. There is so much too them, so much more than just what’s on the surface. You can’t stay away that long next time. I simply can’t find a Sox1 detox center close by!

    26. Please make this the last victim; I’m feeling so sad for all the girls.

      Great love between Bette and Tina.

      Also, I’m glad your fund raiser did so well. Kids are so special!

      Thanks for saving some energy for us!

    29. Thanks so much for giving us this amazing tale when your life is so busy. I am amazed at how much you give thanks. Your story is the most breath taking I just can’t wait to read. I saw that you had posted and almost didn’t post myself as I wanted to read you story so bad. Thanks so much for sharing your talent.

    33. Sox, I was grinnin’ ear to ear when I saw you posted tonight. I’m glad to have you back in the fold. ;)Congratulations on your fund raising! That’s some strong multitasking there.

    34. OMG, this chapter mad me cry. It was so beautifully written. I love the love they have for eachother. I was afraid you stopped posting! I’m glad you’re back, please post again soon!

    35. Enjoyed it fully Sox. I like the idea of MC-17 ha.I don’t need all the details to enjoy B and T’s erotic encounters.Waiting for the next chappy.

    37. Sox, your story is so well written, so beautifully told, and full of its own sensuality, that you dont need to “be one of those detailed lips partin, clit smacking, lick the drippings off the fingers kind of NC-17 writers…”

      If I could rate this chapter alone a 10, you would have it. QQg forward to the next 1.

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