I broke free from the kiss and just frowned.  I felt like kicking myself.  Bette looked surprised to see my reaction.

Bette:  Is everything ok?

Tina:  No, we can’t do this Bette.

Bette:  Why not?  I thought you wanted this?  I mean when I kissed you, you kissed me back!  Doesn’t that count for something?  Doesn’t it feel right?

Tina: Yes.  I mean no, it’s not right.  I’ve been here Bette.  How could you?  I’ve been here before.  Did you forget?

Bette:  Tina please, of course I never forget.  How could I forget?  It was the worst day of my life to see you hurt.  And I was so stupid…

I can’t believe it.  She remembers and all the while and she just keeps going for it. 

Tina:  Yes that is right Bette.  And you’re going to see the same thing happening again if you’re not too careful. 

Bette looked lost.  But I just couldn’t care less.  She’s at it again.  I can’t be like this.  I can’t be sucked into this bullshit again.  I have cursed the other woman far too long now.  I cursed Candace.  I’m not prepared to be the hypocrite here and break another person’s heart while going after what I want.

Bette:  Tina please…

Tina:  No Bette.  I can’t do this.  I’m not thinking straight.  And you obviously aren’t thinking at all!

Bette:  But Tina, we were doing so good.  Don’t do this.  Don’t do this.  If this was too fast, I can slow down.  We have to work it out.  We have to.

Tina:  Yes we do.  But before we can do that, you have to know what you want.  It seems to me that you want everything… all of it at the same time.  I’m going to take Alice home.  Call me when you find out what it really is that you’re looking for…

Bette just stared at me not knowing what to say.  I looked at her not believing this is happening and turned around to leave Kit’s office.

Bette:  But Tina…

I left her.  I stormed out and couldn’t be bothered to hear the rest of what she has to say.

Tina:  Come on Al!  Let’s get you home.

Alice was slumped on the sofa smiling giddily, something I have come to see often during the time I spent sleeping on her couch.

Alice:  Hey T!  Let’s dance!  Where are you going?  No I don’t want to go yet!

Shane:  Hey what’s going on T?

Tina:  I just need to head back.  I’ll see you tomorrow Shane.

Shane:  You need help with Al?

Tina:  No it’s ok thanks.  G’nite Shane, bye Kit

Shane:  Oh ok.  Drive safe T.  Take care of Al, she’s had a little too much to drink!

Tina:  Yeah you don’t say!

On the way to Alice’s place, the kiss was all I could think of.  Even through my anger and my frustration, it was the only thing I could think of. 

Fuck Bette!  It’s the same thing all over again!  Fuck!