Bette took this opportunity to change the direction of the conversation and point it towards Tina as Bette’s next comment came out of Tina’s mouth just moments prior.  “You.. go on” Bette was trying to retrieve a response from a now flustered Tina.  

“I I don’t know what to say” Tina softly spoke.   

“You don’t know what to say?”  Bette repeated , but in such a way that Tina was meant to answer her own question.   

Tina was not enjoying this at all anymore she was desperately looking for a way to redirect the conversation to Bette or to find her way out of Bette’s gallery.  She wanted anything but to answer questions Bette was going to ask, especially since she did not know how to answer them all herself.  Tina wanted to take time to process what just happened now between the two of them.  The three minutes that passed since the kiss was not enough time to process all of the thoughts and consequences that the kiss could have and may have brought.  The one thing that Tina does a lot of is processing.  Tina analyzes every little detail and sometimes she over does it.  She could not help but think that maybe she over analyzed this kiss that just happened between the two of them.  A mere thirty seconds must have gone by and Bette was waiting for an answer so Tina answered her the best that she could have at the time.   

“What was the question again?” Tina asked trying obviously to stall her answer.   

Bette restated what she wanted to know perhaps trying to make it an easier question for me to answer.  “Why did you let your hands do the talking? You let you hand linger in mine Ms. Kennard, you could have just took the earring when I held it out to you.  I thought you might have wanted a little more contact.  So why did you do that if you didn’t want anything to happen”  

“I just couldn’t help myself” There I said it.  It was not as difficult as I thought it was going to be to say.  I actually felt a sigh of relief wash over me.  I do not know how I expected Bette to respond to that comment.  I think that deep down I wanted her to kiss me again but I could tell by the concerned look on her face that she definitely did not have that in mind.  The next words that came out of her mouth hit me like a ton of bricks.  

“Lets just forget that ever happened then” Bette said but I could not help but notice a look of regret coming across her face as she said those words.  Right then I knew I had to say something to change the direction of where things were headed.  So I blurted out  

“No, I don’t want to forget it” The look on Bette’s face was that of sure confusion.  ***** I was confusing myself.  It was like I was playing a game of ping-pong in my head? should I or should I not act on my emotions.  I finally decided to go for it.  I mean after all we only live once right?  That is when I took two more steps forward to the place where I was standing just moments prior when Bette broke off our first kiss.  There I was, standing again right in front of her, face to face and it is then when I reached in and kissed her with a passion and burning desire that I had for her, deep within me.  Or so that is what I thought my feelings were for her at that time.  But all things must come to an end and again this time Bette broke off the kiss and there we were standing there again in an awkward silence, which she happened to break yet again.  By saying:  

“I think that you should leave” OUCH that hurt, and that hurt me a lot.  I knew it was time for me this time to do the apologizing so I did.   

“I’m sorry Bette, I didn’t mean” I was cut off by Ms. Porter “don’t you mean that you’re sorry Ms. Porter?” Oh yeah that is right I forgot that I was being a total ***** to Bette just moments ago somehow I knew that Bette would remind me of that.  So I corrected myself and said,

“I’m sorry Ms. Porter I don’t know what came over me just now?” Bette then interrupted me and said   “I think you should leave Ms. Kennard.”  And with those last few words spoken by Ms. Porter I did just that, I turned around and left.