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Chapter 30 – WANTING
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“You’re being too kind.” Bette shook her head. “I’ve acted horribly at times, especially towards you.”
“I may have said some unpleasant things about you too back then.” A trace of a grin spread across the blonde’s lips.
“You had every right to do so.” Bette nodded in agreement. She knew she deserved whatever words Tina had threw her way. “I won’t blame you if you never wanted to see or speak to me ever again.”
“That will never happen.” Tina rubbed the back of Bette’s hands. She felt a fierce desire to safeguard this woman. “I don’t want to image any world without you in it.”
“How can you say that?”
“Because Bette, I’ve loved you all my life. Since the very beginning” Tears readily ran now the blonde’s cheeks. “You were everything to me, my whole world. We were planning a future together, a life together. God, we were gonna get married. And then . . . then I lost you.”
“T . . . Tina.” Bette noticed her slip and corrected herself. The doctor’s own voice was thick with sudden emotion.
“Maybe one day we’ll talk about it.” Tina quickly wiped the tears from her cheeks. She understood this wasn’t the time or place to have this discussion.
“Yes, one day.” Bette tried to smile, but her lower lip trembled instead. She was holding on to the thinnest thread of composure she could manage. At this moment, she wanted nothing more than to crush the blonde to her, devour her lips and body and stay in her embrace for the rest of time. She’d forgive Tina anything to just be in her embrace once more.
“Hm, maybe one day soon.”
“Yes, soon.” Bette couldn’t help the trace of a smile that spread across her lips. For the first time in years, real hope flickered in her heart. “Soon.”
“Then,” Tina gazed at the brunette with all the love she had for her. “I’ll hold you to that.”
Bette just nodded. Her own eyes filled with her own unshed tears.
Lord, I still love this woman so, so much.
But how can Tina still love me?
“You do that.” Bette whispered.
“I will.” A trace of anticipation spread across the blonde’s face as well. A small smile appearing there too. “Promise.”
Hope had finally arrived.
“Good.” Bette shook her head, letting the blonde know she knew how utterly important this was. “I know you have many questions and I have a lot to answer for and to explain.”
“I do and yes, you do too.”
“I know.” Bette nodded. “And I will.”
“Understood.” Tina quickly nodded. “So, um, about Ashley . . . “
“I’ll see to it immediately. Please don’t worry any more about that.” Bette reassured her. “My team will reach out to you later today. Emma has all your contact information.”
“Great.” Tina suddenly reached up and cupped Bette’s face, caressing her left cheek and jaw. “Thank you.”
“Again, I’m so sorry.” Bette managed. “About everything.”
“I know.” Tina instinctively leaned in and placed a tender kiss on Bette’s cheek. “See you soon.”
Bette shivered at the contact. A bolt of energy racing up and down her spine. Her body on fire. She gazed dropped down to Tina’s lips and then she dragged them to look Tina in the eyes. She saw emotions flicked across the hazel orbs once more. She was fighting an internal battle to toss all reason and responsibility to the wind and wrap Tina in her arms and never let her go again.
Tina gave her a quick, small smile and then slipped out of the room before she became a complete fool by throwing herself at the brunette with all caution thrown to the wind.
“Bloody hell.” Bette whispered as she watched Tina hurriedly walk away and then she slowly closed the door and collapsed against it . . .
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To be continued . . .
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OMG – that was so, so good!
I just want to lock them in a room and force them to TALK to each other – but then, we wouldn’t have your story if I did!! Ha
This keeps getting better and better.
Make Bette talk to Tina soon.
Thanks for the update – keep them coming.
I would like to do the same with them, but I have yo give them a chance to come around on their own & in their own time!! Yes, Bette will start to come around – slow, but she will.
Thanks for the nice words & your efforts on continuing to follow.
Much more action to come.
Wow… this is awesome.
First, I want to Thank you so much for posting like you said you would cause I was actually expecting. and I want to Thank you again for making each chapter Worth the wait.
This one is hot hot. The anticipation is killing me. Hmm… so Now bette is beginning to come around. Why is she so scared to accept what’s right in front of her.
She better talk to Tina soon, Please make them talk already.
Sorry, it got posted twice.
Great comment – think and feel the same way!
Thanks about the ‘hotness’!!
first I want to thank you for posting like you said you would cause I was actually expecting. And I Thank you again for making each chapter Worth the wait.
This one is hot hot. The anticipation is killing me. Hmm… so Now Bette is beginning to come around. Why is she so scared to accept what’s right in front of her.
She better talk to Tina soon, Please make her talk to Tina already. Thanks
Thrilled that I was able to deliver on time for you & that you enjoyed the chapter!!
I do put a lot of work into each chapter & have several editing sessions before I post each update – tweaking each read through.
Yes ma’am – Bette is starting to realize that Tina is an immovable force & ‘resistance is futile’!
Part of the reason why she’s hesitant to open up & accept Tina again is shame for how she acted in the past, fear of rejection or failure, the reality that she’s sick & has no future to offer to Tina.
Yes, Bette will start the process of talking to Tina very soon.
Thanks for following!
Great chapter my friend!
I wish you can lock them up when they are both in London and talk it out and begin a fresh start together.
You can feel both their struggle and especially Bette’s resistance to talk with Tina.
Look forward to the next chapter.
Hey,
Thanks for the comment.
Your wish might come true!! Ha
They’ll get to see each other & ‘talk’ more often. Those feelings will come to the surface.
Hope you like the upcoming chapters.
What angst! This was perfect.
Now they can start to move forward.
I take it Bette is holding back because of her illness?
Will she tell Tina what is happening or will Tina learn it from Helena or James?
This is so interesting and I am so hopeful for them.
hmmmmm gonna have to re-read some chapters. Ive forgotten any mention of Bette’s health concerns.
Let’s see . . . where to start?
Bette’s illness was mentioned previously – when she was initially sick in a chapter with Tina – she got sick overseas & was in the hospital. Also, mentioned in Bette’s conversations with James.
Yes – where to start??? Ha!!
Ha!!! Guessed right & found the convo with James chpt 15).
Having fun starting there and re-reading . . .
Hey, glad you found the reference!!
Enjoy the reread & see ya soon with the next update!!
You’re absolutely right, now they can start fresh & get to know one another again & be comfortable with each other.
You’re also right about why Bette is holding back. Her illness.
Think the reveal with be multifaceted.
Yes, stay hopeful.
BTW, Happy birthday SassyGran!!!
Actually, its already, the next day where U live sweet Lady
Thanks for reminding us about SG’s BD!!!
Everybody wish her well!!
OMG! The anticipation, the sexual tension, the angst – this chapter has it all! I do love how Tina wasn’t giving up easily.
And they almost had a fight – understandable with all their intense emotions built up over years. But I love how it led them to agree to talk soon about all the things they need to talk about.
Whew, love this update. I like the idea of an epilogue and revisiting them at some point.
I love your writing and will read anything you write.
Already looking forward to the next update.
Hey pal,
Tina’s that pushy American that doesn’t quit * won’t accept no as an answer for anything.
I actually toned down the near fight over what I had originally wrote. It just seemed too far over the top & didn’t flow well with the feel of the chapter. I also decided to speed up the reconciliation & not drag it out to extremes.
I agree about the epilogue – but a short one – maybe just a chapter & then revisit down the line later.
Thanks for the loyalty.
Ashley & sister love will be a big part of the next chapters.
Will post soon.
I’m with you on Collins’ writing – so strong, compelling and filled with emotions.
You’re very kind & generous with your praise. It goes straight to my heart!!
So frustrating and yet so… understandable.
Bette’s complicated life (huge professional responsibilities, her illness) gives her an alibi to hide her feelings from Tina. She tries to convince herself that it’s for the best but I’m sure Tina isn’t fooled and will try to confront her again in London and who knows maybe with the help of nice “friends”.
Very good chapter, can’t wait to see them in London.
I hope all is well with the family and that the cleaning is all done ! Take care.
Hi,
You know its complicated & not an easy path for either of them.
You are on the right path too about ‘friends’ helping out. And yes, TK will press forward once Ashley’s in the program & on the way to recovery.
I’m actually looking forward to getting back to London & writing with that city the focus location.
Thanks for asking about family – they are doing better!!
Until next time.
Like many of the others who’ve left comments, I too am looking forward to seeing them in London and furthering their reconnection.
Excellent chapter and thank you for sharing it with us.
Thanks for commenting & sharing your thoughts with others. Its very gratifying to know that readers are willing to interact with other readers too.
Been working on editing the next chapter & fine tuning it. Hopefully within the next 10 days it’ll be ready for posting!!