She let out the smoke in a long grey funnel, joining me in an ironic smile.

I never stopped, I just never told you because you were doing so well with quitting.

Thanks Liz, I would never have quite if I knew you hadn’t.

Yeah I know.

We looked at each other and smiled, bringing the little white sticks to our lips in unison.

Does Millie know about your dad?

No. I said quietly, watching as the ash flickered off into the wind. I don’t want to tell her, I cant believe what hes done I mean it makes me sick. I paused, needing to get it all off my chest. But Im not that different, I mean can understand what hes going through and it makes me feel disgusting. I said, my nose scrunched up in disgust.

Trix, you haven’t just left your wife and five year old son. Your situation is completely different to your dads, youve met someone who was waiting for you. I mean you and Millie are just meant to be, youre young and youre falling for each other. I mean I don’t know what your dads going through but it sounds like a mid life crisis.

Well why couldn’t he just get a leather jacket or a sports car or something, why does he have to go *****! I said, my voice raising as the frustration was trying to get out.

I don’t know Trix, parents are messed up just like we are. What did your mum have to say about the ***** bit?

I sighed, thinking back to the words my mum had use to describe being *****.

Um, she said he must be wrong in the head and that he needed to see a doctor, oh and that it was very embarrassing for her. Shes like refusing to tell anyone hes run off with a man, just because of what people would think about her.

Lizzie was quiet, it wasn’t getting much better.

I guess now is the wrong time to introduce her to Millie right?